The Void

Caged birdie

I need to fly but these flies are holding me back....their gooey wings forming webs round mine

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Reana,

I had felt the bed sink just right next to me and when I opened my eyes,there was a set of glassy grey eyes staring back at me.Opening my eyes didn't actually have any impact in my deadbeat self.It was all the same;nothing triggered any emotion in me not even my haunted past.However,those eyes looked like mirrors as they reflected the distant tinge in mine.

He had held a tumbler just under my lips probably hoping I would fall for the act and drink of its contents.Lately I had thawed to the acts of kindness and look where that got me!So I pushed away the glass making him drop it.

I couldn't miss the anger and disappointment in his eyes for a second but as fast as they showed,they were replaced with that cold wall that screamed a BACK OF!

I knew not where I was but this time I really didn't care.All I knew was there were many servants monitoring me.They also tried to torture me in all manners of ways like I was some malfunctional tool.Well,my black hole never allowed the induced pain to get to me at all.

My wall was up than never before and I clung to it vowing to never let it crumble away -again.

It was getting rather uncomfortable seeing him this close.I guess my hate for invading personal space had not gone down the drain with the other feelings.It had actually heightened.

"Leave."I growled.It was my first time talking in what felt like days.He was startled at first but quickly left my presence.Yes,I said presence because it was so obvious I was treated in high regard.The torturing bit aside,I couldn't help but think I was a valuable amenity to whoever they worked for.

All I had ever wanted was freedom.Freedom from those who wanted to inflict harm on me nevertheless,I appreciated my numbness because it meant 'they' would never get to me.

I could hear mumbling and footsteps drawing near...Why could they not just let me be in peace.I knew I was sort of a captive but still was privacy too much to ask for?

"Are you sure she talked Alex?"A rich and familiar voice asked as the two walked in.

The spooky looking servant probably had snitched on me.His face was a blank mask as he spoke to a lady I suppose was his mistress.

She reeked of power and authority but well I always defied authority.I could tell this was going to get interesting so I lay there still as a Greek statue.I would so get at the servant called Alex.I would drive them mad by playing pretend corpse.

He poked at me insistently so that I would wake up but it hardly got to me.I cared not if he would get in trouble for giving a 'false alert'.This was on him.

"I never thought you of all other people would play such mind tricks on me Alex!" I heard the lady scolding him with a hint of disappointment.

Serves him right.I could have said that aloud but I had to keep on faking.

"At no one point will you leave this position till she "talks" as you claim."The lady sternly told the poor servant.

Did I just say poor Gaaah! Anyway,I waited till I heard the door close then I slowly fluttered my eye lids open.
Glassy eyes stared right at me with accusation.I could not help but smirk at him.

"Servant don't you dare leave this position."I mimicked the lady only to see sparks in his once dead eyes.They were such an interesting sight to behold.They could ignite,set ablaze and then recoil to their cold sad state in a matter of seconds.

"Such a mischievous thing for one this small."He somewhat prolonged each syllable in what felt like a caress.Good thing I was immune to even the giddy feelings.The way he referred to me as a thing tempted me to hate him.

No Reana don't feel!!!I screamed in my head ensuring those torturous feelings remained caged.

"I could have been executed you see?"He said as his golden hair fell hiding part of his face.My fingers itched to curl round those strands of hair and make him look at me

Reana where did that come from?! I asked myself.Okay,okay its just that his hair was a strange shade of gold.
I had almost forgotten he had talked to me.

"Back of and I really ain't interested in what would have happened to you."I whispered but I knew he heard every single word.

"I will make your life in here as miserable as misery itself caged birdie."His smooth voice danced around with each single word.There was a sinister way he looked at me.Sort of a wolf sizing up a prey.

Caged birdie?This confirmed it;that yet again the fates would never let me be.I would never serve me but always someone else.I let an exasperated sigh, I guess I would never know how long and wide my wings were or would I?

Alex,I had never been a mind reader but from his eyes I could tell he was caged as I was.

"I wouldn't get to much comfortable if I were you because a captive you are."His velvety voice taunted me as he broke eye contact with him.If I would dream upon sleeping, it would definitely be with those glassy grey eyes.

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I think I prefer kitty to birdie😸....Love J.......