The Void

condensed air

To breathe or not to breathe? Gasping for air or forcing out air?

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Reana....

Eyes make me uneasy.They seem to bore right into one's essence.It is not shyness, it's simply detesting the limelight.It felt like the weight of the whole world rested on me.What did they expect of me? To bow?To cry?Oh I had cried before.So many times that I had lost count.With each dawn I had cried less till there were no more tears to cry.

I  didn't choose this.So why then the expectant gazes.Don't call me bitter for bitterness was underneath me.My humanity was in 'limbo'.After constant juggling even the ball can get tired right?Oh well, I envy the ball for it is lifeless and I ain't.To see the very man who had haunted my mind was no welcome relief.He was a stranger but the way he looked at me was not strange.There was a fire in his eyes,a cool steady flame.Wait! He was a monster but why did I not flee in fear.

Monsters were supposed to be hideous and ugly right?But why was he all good looking and drool worthy.His name was Mogan a sinister yet ennobling name.I could not have named him better.

If I had not forgotten to laugh I would have laughed at Gaea-mother earth.For connecting a dying rose to a volcanic rage.I knew not the smoke behind his flaming eyes but in this I could agree-I had met a match in self loath.

They were watching, everyone was.From lords to peasants.Paupers to princesses.Knights and damsels.Everyone in the ball was watching.The air seemed to thicken.It was as if to breathe was a sin in itself.Anyway, man had done much great a sin but I was no judge over their frailty for I was also human.

Eyes see and see
Mirrors show reflections
Bad and good
How are you?
Same old same old you answer
One is ol' till they find another older.

With bated breath the baits awaited.A decision made on a whim could save or destroy them

"What's it going to be pet?"Athena taunted

"I love to wear my hair down."I simply blurted without thinking.

"Accidental wisdom saves mankind."Poseidon said

"Wise choice, accident or not your lives belong to you.Poseidon how about a truce?"The breathtaking goddess announced and with that the burdened air was uplifted.

Alex had been watching.I was still mad at him for calling me a hag but I didn't blame him really.After all I had been annoying and a temperamental old wench.He radiated warmth while Mogan the monster wielded flames.Not that I liked him! While others seemed to be breathing normally the Mogan guy was making it difficult for me.

Okay I might be blaming him but seriously who would survive an audience with not one but two gods and breathe normally?As human as I am, I had to pin a blame on someone you know like a scary monstrous yet hot man.

Wounds don't fade overnight
Scars are merely marks
Lessons imprinted
Succumbing lifted
Leaping up anyway
while healing them wounds
Along the way

Audience or not.Victory or not I was still me.Reana.Not a hunched up woman but one with a bunch of scars.As the gods ascended,to  some other dimension I suppose, I knew that this was not the end.

Wars end for others to begin...time only gifts us space to heal and be braced for those to come.

To say I love to wear my hair down did not sound  in any way like wisdom.Probably I would never know how I had passed the gods' test.Pure luck I suppose.Realisation had dawned on the gods and I hoped it would dawn on human kind also even at dusk.

Sometimes even hatred can be let go simply by breathing it out.Staying in the abyss so long had eaten me up.I was just but a shell now but shell or not I would not succumb-never again.

"Wild cat you made them flee!" Mogan mocked.

"Did not and name is Reana.They went on their own free will."

"Free will you say.with those piercing eyes of yours I'd say you scared them off."He retorted.

Warmth was spreading across my cheeks.Must be because of the anger towards him I comforted myself.

Breathe Reana!I mentally scolded myself.
He was right on one thing though.The gods had departed on their own will and we also had will...

To heal
To forgive
To grow

An act of will is all it takes....

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