It's complicated {completed}

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Jace and I dance for a while. His hands never leave my hips and even when we're dancing he's so... nice. It's driving me crazy. Why does he have to be like this? Can't he just be a jerk? Just like Zane? But no this idiot right here (yup me) had to catch feelings for the jerk who'd never like her for more than her vagina while there is a guy who actually likes me and respects me. Once again life is a bitch. I saw Zane earlier making out with a girl I've never seen before. But god knows where he is now. But as if he heard me he suddenly pops up in my view. And he look right at me. No more like he stares at me. And he doesn't seem pleased with the fact of me dancing with Jace. But instead of me stopping the dancing I decide to swing my hips even more. Jace and i are dancing my back against his chest but my eyes never leave Zane's.

"Hey you... uhm wanna go somewhere more quiet?"
Jace asks me and catches me off guard. I was so focused on Zane that I forgot I was dancing with him. I completely zoned out. Jaces eyes follow the direction where I just looked at and he freezes. "I see." Is all he says before he turns around to leave.

"Jace. Wait." Okay What I did was a solid bitch move but the least I can do is apologize. No I need to because it's not fair to him. He deserves so much better than my fucked up behavior. So I decide to follow him. "Jace." He stops his tracks but doesn't turn around. "I'm sorry. What i did wasn't fair. You deserve so much better."

"Save it. It's okay. It's not your fault the heart wants what it wants. I just hope he's smart enough not to treat you like one of his one night stands." Why does he have to be so nice? It drives me crazy. Why can't he just yell at me, call me a bitch and tell me of how much of a mistake I just made. No instead he justifies my behavior and tells me that it's okay? OKAY?

"No it's not okay. You don't have to say it Jace. Its okay to be mad at me. God I would more than understand if you'd hate me."

"I could never hate you Maya. Like I said it's okay. Just be careful next time. Not everyone is as understanding as I am." He gives me one last smile before he disappears. Maya Grace White you're a bitch. I check my phone it's only 11:30 but I have no desire to stay any longer. I fucked up and all I want is to go home in my bed and sleep. Maddy texted me to let me know she took off with true he barkeeper dude. So I go and look for Violet. I find her on the dance floor dancing with a couple other people from the dance squad. She told me it was okay to go home because she wanted to stay longer and would fetch a ride with Ash later. So here I am outside leaning against a tree, waiting for my Uber to arrive. It's getting super cold ever since it's almost November and I thought it'd be smart to go out without a jacket. It catches me off guard when someone suddenly appears in front of my grabbing both of my hands and holding them above my head. I wanna scream but I am calm as soon as I recognize the voice.

"You look fucking hot in that dress." Zane whispers into my ear while he starts kissing my neck. I can't suppress a moan as he does. "Makes me wanna rip it off your damn body and take you right here and now." God bless me for drinking way too much once again.

"So why don't you?" I push him. I hear his husky laugh against my neck as he keeps on kissing it.

"Oh that's what you want princess?"

"Maybe."

"Well I think there's a better place for your first time don't you?" That's like a splash of cold water. How did he know?

"What?"

"Oh don't think I didn't know you were a virgin. I can tell you're one with just looking at you. Or the way you're always blushing whenever I talk about my hook ups. Or whenever..."

"Jerk." I push him off me. And luckily my Uber arrives at the same time. Well at least live isn't a bitch for once in a while. I get in the car and just as I'm about to close the door it opens again and Zane gets in right next to me. "What the fuck?"