the very worst of us / the best of us

chapter 1

Taehyung often thought about how his life has turned out to be. He is in his early thirty's, with three adorable clingy kids who loves him so much. He got a stable job, a nice cozy house and he had learnt to thank God for the blessings.
Sometimes when Junghyung tells him how thankful he is to have him as his father and when Taejung swears he don't need anybody else in the world and when his three year old son Taegguk smiles so brightly with his adorable bunny smiles, he forget about one of his label, a divorced man.
But at nights when its too lonely and all he can hear is the faint murmurs of the night, the insecurity about being not good enough as a parent, as a nurse, as a human being creeped up onto him and he can't help but shed a few tears. But he always remember to face the new day with positivity, for his children, for his patient and for himself. He wants to be healthy and happy for his kids because his kids only have him. Sure Seokjin and Namjoon adores them but a parent is a parent.

"Appa.. you okay?" Taehyung was startled and he almost dropped the glass in his hands.

He turned around to see his eldest son with his bed hair in his pajamas.

"Oh baby! Why are you awake?" Taehyung asked while looking at the clock.

It was way too early to be up and Junghyung have to be up in four hours for school.

"Just had a hunch that you'll be here. You know I always know when something's bothering you." Junghyung answered with a chuckle while walking towards his father who was sitting on the porch. He wrapped the blanket that he brought with him around his father who smiled brightly at him, obviously touched.

Taehyung gestured his son to take the seat beside him and Junghyung wasted no time to sit down and wrapped his arms around his Dad.

"You know Appa, our p.e teacher was asking a lot about you today. He said you will surely remember him." Junghyung said.
Taehyung chuckled, knowing all too well that his son was trying to distract him from his thoughts.
"Oh really? What did he say?" He asked, cuddling to his son who is surely buff for his age.

"He talks about how you were always the sweetest senior in the school and how you were the most beautiful person and how though you were always trying to lay low, you'd always attract admirers." Junghyung finished with a teasing smile.

Taehyung laughed heartedly.

"Did he really say that? I'm so flattered."

"He admitted that he was one of the admirer and that he still have a huge crush on you. He's a great guy Appa" Junghyung continued.

Taehyung rolled his eyes but can't helped the smile forming on his lips.

"Yah! Junghyung!" He slapped his son's chest gently knowing that his son is trying to set him up on a date once again.

"What Appa?? He's cool. He wants to take you out on a date and I told him that I'd put in some words"

This made Taehyung laughed uncontrollably and hit his sons muscled arms with his palms.

"Yah! Junghyung-ah! How can you say that to your teacher?"

The father and son continued to tease one another and later on, they lay peacefully and enjoyed the air of the dusk.

"Honestly Appa. Its okay for you to date. Alright?" Junghyung said holding his father's hand.

Taehyung, now free from all the toxic thoughts that made him unable to sleep was once again grateful for having a son like Junghyung. So understanding, so loving, so caring and for being the bestest son in the world. And he knows that Junghyung doesn't really wants him to date and that he can't stand the guys who look at him a bit too long and that he is also as possessive as his younger brothers when it comes to him. Junghyung just wants his father to be happy. He loves him so much and Taehyung is aware of it.