Bey
I woke up on Onika's chest and I couldn't have picked a better way to wake up.
"Somebody's finally awake," she said with her arm wrapped around me.
"How long was I asleep?" I responded.
"Like an hour and a half."
"Damn."
"Yeah, I didn't mind. Plus I enjoy watching you sleep."
"You watch me sleep? Weirdo."
"Yeah cause that's the only time you look ugly."
I playfully hit her on the stomach and she overreacted, bunching herself into a ball and holding her stomach.
"Fuck Beyoncé you're gonna kill it," she winced.
"Girl," I responded and we both laughed.
Some time passed and a silence grew.
"Nic I have a question."
"I might have an answer."
"How long have you.... ya know, known that you liked girls."
"Since I realized I was trapped in the closet."
I rolled my eyes, girl play too damn much, "Nic."
"Alright damn, uhhhh, since I kissed my first girl."
"And when was that?" I said sitting up.
"Woah, it was in the 3rd grade and her lips were ode chapped. And my friends were gassing it up like the whole situation got me mad tight."
"What are you saying to me? I'm from Texas, sweetheart."
Nic laughed a little before she answered.
"Basically I got pressured into kissing some girl and her lips were not moisturized and I was so mad because that wasn't what I expected my first kiss to feel like."
"Well what did you expect?"
"I expected something like our first kiss to be honest with you."
I blushed a little and covered my face, "I still can't believe that happened."
"Yup," she responded popping the P.
"No not like that, I enjoyed it. I didn't think I was going to. I thought you were going to be like freaked out by how aggressive I was."
"That aggressive shit, sends me to another place babygirl."
"Really?"
"Hell yeah. I got a lot of attitude and sometimes I need to get put in my place, nobody ever puts me in my place and that's why I don't be taking shit seriously."
"Do you take me seriously?"
"Why is that even a question?"
"I don't know I mean.... I don't know."
"Beyoncé I want you to be mine and I know these are just words but I know for a fact my actions will show that. It's up to you because I know that you're not even sure of what you want."
At this point I was staring down at her body as she was laying down. All of my weight was on my right arm as I sat up on the rear of her bed. I fixed myself so that I could climb on top of her, pressing my heat directly against hers. I wanted Nicki to be mine too, but I wanted her to know that it was going to be the biggest transition of my life and coming out to my family wasn't going to be easy, I wanted to know if she would accept me for who I was before my family even had the chance to. I know I'm something past bi-curious but I know a man could never suffice my thoughts and beliefs the way Nicki does, her mind is beautiful and so is she.
"I want you too," I whispered to her as I made direct eye contact with her.
"The only thing I ask is that you show me," she responded right before she took my lips in with hers.
"I will," I said between kisses.
"Good, now get off of me my mother said no smoochy smoochy," she whispered right after our lips parted.
"Oops I'm sorry," I said as I climbed off of her and laid next to her again.
She hugged me tighter and pulled my body closer to hers, I wrapped my leg across her torso and finished watching Netflix.
"Nika!" Nicki's mother called for her.
She got up to open her door and answer, "Yes ma?!"
"You and Beyoncé come and eat."
"Alright!"
She turned back around, "you hungry?"
"Of course."
"Get up then biggie smalls."
I pierced my eyes at her, "you gon keep playing lil girl."
She did nothing but head downstairs to the kitchen and I soon followed. I'm really gonna fall for this girl.
Damn.
