Limerence

Chapter 20

Jisoo's POV

People say you win some, you lose some. I've been wanting to know who Kim Seokjin was by hearing his parent's stories about him. Now that we already know each other, something bad happened.

Seokjin was waiting to be connected with me again after we slept together for the first time. Now that our connection had been made, he made a big mistake. The result is he lost me from his grip.

It wasn't anyone's fault. It's just the way universe work. Maybe his parents have been right all along that we shouldn't know each other before we are ready to settle down with our life. Maybe they already know the end of our relationship from our personality. They know that their son is reckless and enjoying his life to the fullest. They also know I tend to run away from complicated things.

I finally did the job that I want and Seokjin finally gets some recognition from people all around the world. You win some, you lose some. We're getting what we need and we're losing what we want. Two months without any contact. Two months without seeing each other. When he is back into my life, HE IS BACK. He is making me suffocating. I've been trying to put my mind back to Inkigayo but when he is everywhere, it's really hard for me to do my job properly. Since Inkigayo isn't airing yet, I took a moment to find any reason that can explain why Seokjin and I can't work.

"Earth to Kim Jisoo." Bobby was trying to get my attention. Bobby did his first and last pre-recording for his solo debut in Inkigayo. He is alone without his members and he almost follows me everywhere. I got to be the model in multiple CF with iKon and to be his love interest in Lee Hi and Suhyun's MV before Blackpink debut. I can't say that we are especially close to each other but he is more comfortable with me and Jinyoung than anybody else at this moment.

And here I am... thinking about Seokjin. BTS is everywhere. Everyone is talking about them. Somehow this comeback is bigger than their last comeback. Somehow people want to know about them. They want to be close to them. Meanwhile, all I want to do is play with Dalgom or sleep. I want to go far away from all of those people that are talking about BTS. I just want to go home.

But I can't. I'm stuck and I have to act professionally in front of them. I have to act like I'm interested when they talked about BTS. I can't show them any bad reaction when they talked. They're going to think that something is happening between me and BTS. This is the truth but it will be dangerous for me and him if the information went to the wrong person.

I'm pretty sure that the universe is going against me. Just because I cut my ties with Seokjin, they don't have to torture me this hard. I changed my phone number after I went home to Korea from Japan and I didn't tell Seokjin my new number. With a purpose to actually stay far away from him.

BTS had their pre-recording when I was getting my makeup done. So I don't know what's going on out there but my makeup artist keeps talking about them while they did my makeup.

When I was done with my makeup, I've found out that Seokjin had another schedule with Jungkook. So they already went to go to their next schedule, leaving the rest of BTS here in SBS. Out of 7 days in a week, do they have to choose today to have another schedule?

I need to convince myself that they didn't do it so they can avoid me. I'm kind of in denial right now and a little bit butt-hurt that they need to do that. But also a whole lot of confused with how am I feeling at the moment. It's like I want to see him but I don't. Like I want him to miss me but I want to punch his face.

I mean I cut our connection. I left him in that restaurant. But it's better for him just to be here rather than haunting me like this without him being present. It's like I want to pretend he is not that important in my life when he is all I can think about. He is not even here but all I can hear is BTS and my mind is going back to our memories together.

One thing for sure that the universe definitely hates me and Kim Seokjin annoyed the hell out of me.

"Hyung..." Jinyoung sits beside me. Now I'm between Bobby and Jinyoung. Apparently everyone decided to annoy me today.

"Mmm..." I responds nonchalant.

"Based on your facial expression right now, I think you're not on your best day today. What happened? You're not like this last week." Jinyoung said.

"I can't even talk to her. She is inside of her head a lot." Bobby said.

"I'm sorry," I told them feeling bad that I can't seem to find a way to get myself together. Today is Seokjin's fault. I refused to blame myself for this.

"Are you sick again?" Jinyoung asked me.

I shake my head. "No. I just-"

"Jisoo. Jinyoung. Come here." One of Inkigayo's producers called us. We left Bobby and went to her. She is holding cue cards and gave us the cards.

"You already know that we're going to Daejeon next week, right?" Jinyoung and I nodded. After she was looking at our response, she continued, "NCT's manager just told me that Doyoung can not go to Daejeon so BTS member will replace him."

"Who?" I asked without realizing that I let the question out.

"We don't know yet. They said they're going to let us know later. As usual, you're both going to talk with him before the show next week." She said while looking at the papers in her hand. She doesn't know that I'm having a breakdown but Jinyoung did.

"Okay, noona." Jinyoung said and then after she dropped the bomb on me, she went inside the studio again. Back at doing her job. Meanwhile, Jinyoung is looking at me like he is trying to figure me out. "Hyung... Did something happened between you and BTS members?"

"How can you say that?" I said as if it wasn't a big deal while walking to the bench where Bobby is.

"Because you never ask before. Whoever it will be, you just don't care. So did something happened?" Jinyoung followed me and he isn't going to let this go.

"No."

He pulled my arm to stop me from walking away. "Do you like one of them?"

"No. Ya! You're sounding like a jealous boyfriend."

"What if I am?"

I took a step back. I'm literally dumbfounded right now. This can't be happening. "You're joking, right?"

He threw his arm on my shoulder and said, "Of course, I am. You don't think I like you, do you?"

"Augh... Park Jinyoung." I said while stomping my feet to the ground.

"Jisoo!" I heard someone is calling me and I saw Kim Junmyeon is walking towards us. What did I do to deserve this?

Jinyoung let his arm go from my shoulder and he left me with Junmyeon. Junmyeon smiles at me.

"I finally got the free time. We can go to dinner tomorrow. What do you think?"

EXO had a comeback before BTS's comeback. This week is BTS's first comeback stage. EXO had their first comeback stage weeks earlier. Junmyeon has been giving me attention these past weeks in Inkigayo. He gave me a sandwich and a glass of coffee from Starbuck today. Jinyoung and Doyoung are still the same bugging me without fail. And then Bobby. How can when I want to go home and sulk, people are everywhere?