Limerence

Chapter 6 (M)

⚠️warning⚠️ Sexual acts. Proceeds at your own risk.

Jisoo's POV

I keep reminding myself that this is our first date over and over again.

I failed to do it.

I'm naked right now and he is busy lifting my waist up and down. Literally lifting my body around as he wished. At this point, I can't control my body anymore.

My mind? I already flushed it at the theater's restroom before I saw him.

My mom will be disappointed with me. Even JENNIE will be disappointed with me right now. I had sex with him on our first date. This is worst than when we had sex at his apartment.

Why? We are both sober. What's worst than that is having sex with Kim Seokjin without alcohol is even better than I remember.

I'm doomed. I'm in HUGE trouble. 

I thought he already had my heart but now apparently he had my body too. I'm defenseless.

He wore perfume this time. I know he didn't before because he smells like alcohol. It's clear to see he had some time to prepare before he sees me this time.

Once I caught his scent, he makes me want to curl into his lap and stay there forever. I had to remind myself again that this is our first date.

So I decided to not look at his face tonight. It's unfair for him to look at me the way he did because I'm trying so hard to hold myself back. He looked at me like he wants to eat me alive. Like he wants to peel off my clothes piece by piece. One by one. Slowly.

Because he did. In his car. He did exactly like that.

I used to see that kind of look when people saw me in a fan meeting or our performance in music shows. I had some fans who look at me like that. They acted normally like our regular fans. But their eyes never lie. I can see right through it. I just ignore those eyes.

The difference with him is I want to do the same thing. I know he wants me and I want him to want me. That's what I'm not to use to it. This whole thing is so new to me. I have never been so attracted to a man before. I never feel this kind of pull from a man before. This is so scary but at the same time, I'm curious to explore it. Don't get me wrong, it's scared the hell out of me.

"Jisoo..." He called me.

"Hmmm..." I murmured. His thrust broke my ability to speak. No one can't blame me for this when he kept on thrusting his length into me like he took his revenge on me because we wasted our time for years.

No, he didn't hold back. He is trying to kill me.

Has anybody died because someone fucked them so hard?

"How can it feels so much better?" He said between his grunts.

"Hmmm.." I murmured again. He pulled me back to his body. I was holding the headrest in front of me to keep me from falling. My back is on his chest. He still has his hands in my waist. He moved my waist in a circular motion. Totally in his control. I'm going to lose my mind if he keeps doing this.

He puts his lips behind my ear. I can feel his harsh breath in my nape. He whispered to me, "I asked you how does it feel so much better?"

"Maybe if you didn't try to kill me, it doesn't feel so good?" I said. I'm losing my mind.

"You are joking, right?" He chuckled.

Note to self, don't ever joke when you have sex. The vibration from his chuckle is so delicious. I can feel it in my whole body. Maybe I should make him laugh more.