Northern Stars Are Flaming

Hold Me

Stevie made her way back upstairs, annoyed with John, breaking the door and sleeping there, also for lecturing her, she felt bad enough and was still  a little insecure that Christine had called him for help, then she felt bad for even being mad when John had been so easy going about discovering the new relationship, except for Christine getting injured, Stevie understood he would be angry, he was still Christine's husband and Stevie was angry enough at herself, she imagined how angry she would have been too if someone else had hurt Christine like she had.

Stevie made her way back to the bedroom.  Christine was still laying there, pretending to be asleep so she got left alone, she didn't want to keep acting like she was alright and Stevie assumed she actually was asleep from the pain and stress and laid behind her in the bed, running her finger across her milky white skin delicately "I'm sorry Chris, but I am going to stop the drugs, I wont use daily anymore!" Stevie whispered and kissed her shoulder, nestling her head against her, inhaling Christine's  sultry rose and lavender perfume and thinking how much she would rather inhale that instead of cocaine.

Christine was so relieved to hear Stevie say she wasn't going to use daily, she couldn't help a little smile.  All she wanted was for Stevie to cut down on the drug use.  She knew how hard it was, her drug and alcohol use went up and down over the years, depending on whatever was going wrong or right in her life and she had been that way since being a teenager.  She hoped Stevie would stick to her words in the morning though. 

Stevie gently pulled the washer from between Christine's legs which made Christine whimper "Sorry baby, but I had to move it, the ice is melting, go back to sleep!" Stevie cooed, rubbing Christine's shoulder and then getting up and tossing the washer into the sink, most of the ice cubes had already melted but Stevie heard some hit the porcelain sink still as they expelled from the washer.  Stevie then crawled back into the bed and pulled the blanket back over them cuddling Christine again "Do you want anything?" She asked softly.

Christine knew Stevie now knew she was awake "I'm going to take some painkillers Steph, can you please fetch them from my room, I would get them but I'm trying to rest!" She sighed, hating to ask for help but she knew she wouldn't sleep otherwise, she still felt like she was throbbing inside and her entrance was stinging her, she also had slight cramping.

Stevie wanted to cry "Your in that much pain still?" She asked feeling terrible again now Christine was asking for painkillers.

"No!" Christine lied "I just hurt me knees falling!" 

Stevie got out of the bed, feeling to bad to say anything as she rustled around in her top drawer of her nightstand, finding a painkiller and then grabbing her water glass "You can have some of mine, you need to sit up, can you even sit?" Stevie asked, holding back tears.

Christine chewed on her bottom lip as she elevated herself enough, even though it hurt, she smiled at Stevie and took the pill, then washing it down with water "Thanks honey!" She said, laying back on her side, whimpering softly.

Stevie frowned hearing her, she was still worried "Do you want to go to the loo before you sleep? I can help you there or I can get John up here to carry you there?" She asked.

"John stayed?" Christine asked surprised and embarrassed.

"Yes in case he had to drive you to the hospital, can you at least let me check you over please, to ease all our minds?" Stevie begged.

"Please check me in the morning, I don't feel like being touched down there right now and besides, its not the first time I have had intercourse, I just want to lay here!" Christine explained softly and Stevie just nodded, not wanting to upset her anymore than she already had, so she just got back in, covering them with the blanket and cuddling her again.

"I'm truly sorry!" Stevie sighed, rubbing Christine's hip. 

"Its okay!" Christine said softly, waiting for the pill to kick in, hoping she would be able to sleep then and wake up feeling not stoned, drunk and sore.

"Its not Christine! You trusted me, you said how you loved having sex with me, this is our second night together and I severely hurt you!" Stevie stammered, trying so hard not to cry, because then she knew Christine would get upset.

"It was an accident, I should have told you how much it hurt, lets just forget it!" Christine muttered, crinkling her face up as she placed a pillow between her knees, to try and put less pressure on herself.

"I can't forget it, I hate myself!" Stevie cried quietly, nestling her head against Christine's back and kissing her skin as she caressed her arm, Stevie thought Christine was still mad because she was facing the wall "Can I see your face?" Stevie asked. 

Christine didn't want Stevie to, because she knew she looked a mess and was crying on and off still when she moved "I look like shit!" Christine sniffled "I finally got comfy too!"

"Alright!" Stevie nodded, cuddling her more "But you never look shit to me!" Stevie added kissing all over her back again "I love you Christine and I am so sorry about tonight!" 

"I love you too!"  Christine replied quietly, then she forced herself to roll over, whimpering and grunting as she did so and she smiled at Stevie, cupping her face "Now stop stressing!" She said softly, rubbing her thumb over Stevie's tear stained cheek.

Stevie took Christine's hand in hers and laid kisses all over it "I am so sorry!" She sighed.

"Stop saying it, I know Steph!" Christine smiled, moving closer and wincing.

"Stay there, let me move closer!" Stevie said and moved closer, gently kissing Christine's lips "Now get some rest beautiful!" 

Christine smiled and laced her hand with Stevie's, she felt warmed by Stevie's touch and comforted as she cuddled up to her, hoping the pain would be gone when she woke up.  Stevie, wrapped her arms around her and was surprised things were not over, yet, she still worried though.