Northern Stars Are Flaming

Unconditional Love

Stevie wanted to cry as she hugged Christine again "Its what I have done to you, I'm sorry!" She whimpered hugging her scared lover "Lets just get you to a clinic, you can see my doctor okay!" Stevie cooed, rubbing Christine's back and basically holding her up, John and Stevie locked eyes, John was even more annoyed.

"Get her in my car, I'm the most sober!" He said firmly.

"Just carry her there!" Stevie snapped and John came over, picking Christine up  and carrying her to the car, she didn't bother trying to stop them much.

"I don't want to do this!" She sighed exhaustedly.

"Well you are!" John said firmly "You should have both been a lot more sober and actually communicating, then this wouldn't have happened! Now, Stevie get the car keys from my pocket!" 

Stevie fumbled about and found them, quickly unlocking the car and John slid Christine on the back seat, Stevie climbed in and put Christine's feet on her lap, rubbing them, they were ice cold and she was trying to give her as much comfort as she could "I just want to be back in bed!" Christine grimaced, rolling over and nestling her head into the white leather seat.

"You couldn't even get up that one fucking step, so you need help!" John exclaimed, climbing in and starting the car up. 

Christine curled up more, but tried elevate one leg more than the other, trying anything for some help to relieve some of the pain "I want to go home, how the fuck am I supposed t explain this when someone looks at me, if there is any damage!" Christine exclaimed.

"Just tell the truth!" Stevie cooed rubbing Christine's leg as the dressing gown rode up.

"I can't!" Christine exclaimed "I want to go home!"

"Say you fucked yourself when you were drunk!" John suggested.

"I will have too!" Christine snapped "I am going to punch you out John!" She added "I fucking hate you for this, asshole, your not with me anymore!"

"Why hate me, all the times we fucked, you could at least get up, I am trying to help you!" John replied, reversing the car out of he driveway.  Christine rolled her eyes and just lay there panicking.

Once they were on the road, Stevie growled the direction to him and tried to sooth Christine "Give me a joint at least before I go in or a toot!" She sighed as he pulled the car up.

"No way, drugs got you in this predicament! I know Stevie would have coked out over Lindsey's shit and you would have gotten stoned to relax.  So Stevie would have been revved up like speedboat and you would have just been a ragdoll!" John explained. 

Stevie glared and Christine blushed "John, just because your jealous! I actually love Chris and I don't give a fuck what you think, you broke her heart and I helped her through it, like she helped me, so back off John, if you want to be concerned, fine! I don't want to fight with you like the other guys okay, I hurt Chris by accident, we were high, stoned and drunk and I feel bad, but stop making me feel worse, it could have happened to anyone!" Stevie snapped.

John silenced, he didn't want to fight with Stevie either.  She had a temper and could be a firecracker, which he realised from her fights with Lindsey.  She could only be pushed so far and John knew he had upset Christine emotionally and been an ass, but he was worried about her anyway and would always love her "We're here!" He said, pulling the car into the parking lot after not speaking for several moments.

"Take me home, I cant do this!" Christine whined curling up more, just wanting to cry. 

"Chris, it will just be like a normal visit with a gynaecologist!" Stevie soothed, rubbing her leg still.

"I have never been to one Steph, I don't believe in doctors since I lost my Mum!" Christine gulped back her tears as she looked at Stevie and Stevie felt even worse when she saw the fear in Christine's blue eyes that seemed more like a stormy ocean than the usual calm and warming sea of sapphire blue she usually saw.

"She's telling you the truth Stevie, she doesn't go to them!" John added and Stevie hugged Christine best she could.

"This is my fault, I'm so sorry, I will come in with you and hold your hand, be there for you because I did this by buying that stupid strap on, I'm so sorry, I can understand if you hate me!" Stevie sniffled, kissing the side of Christine's face.

"I don't hate you, I still want to be with you Stevie, my feelings haven't changed!" Christine stated, running her hand through Stevie's hair.

"How can you still want me and trust me?" Stevie asked and heard John get out of the car sighing, closing the door and leaving them alone together.

"Because I fucking love you no matter what and what happened was my fault, so lets let it go and forget it happened! I used to have sex and just lay there Steph, I was stoned last night, really fucking stoned and I am used to just laying there, but its different with you and I'm sorry!' Christine said firmly, forcing a smile and cupping Stevie's face. 

"I hurt you on our second night together, because I was high, I am cutting back on the coke Chris, if you still want me, you deserve better! Your my first girlfriend, I hurt you!" Stevie frowned.

"Stevie, shut up, your still with me, I am not angry at you, but we will both cut down on drugs!" Christine smiled and Stevie nodded kissing her "Do I have to go in now?"

"Yes, then we can go home, I will come in with you okay!" Stevie soothed "Once you get checked over, we can go home!"

"Checking me over is stupid!" Christine whined. 

"But your hurting, something could be wrong and may need fixing!" Stevie said softly, feeling even worse as she ran her fingers through Christine's hair. 

Christine swallowed back her tears, she was terrified now after Stevie said that and if she was hurt badly, she didn't want Stevie to know "Thank you, but I want to go in myself okay, then I can make out I did it to myself!" Christine smiled softly "I just want to have some drinks first and a joint, please let me!"

Stevie caved and helped Christine sit more to have a swig of whiskey from the bottle John had tossed on the ground and they shared a joint "Now you will go in, I insist on being there!"

"Stevie no, I want to do this myself!" Christine lied "Let me?"

Stevie nodded, trying to make amends "I will go get John to carry you in!" Stevie smiled, kissing her again then getting out of the car "Carry her!" She said blankly.  He just nodded and had soon fetched her, carrying her inside, Stevie and Christine were both still shocked at how their night had turned out.