falling for u ➳ joshua hong

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haewon

i lied. i lied to jisoo. i told him that piano lessons when in reality i don't even take piano lessons! i did tell the truth about how no one knows i play piano, but i don't play the piano now.

why did i lie? because sojung told me to. i told her that i was going to have a meet up in the café, and then she freaked out and told me that he'll just ask me about my past.

it has been three days after that incident, yet i couldn't move on. why? because i feel so guilty that i ditched him. he was waiting for approximately one and a half hours for me, and i never showed up. i heard that he even bought coffee for me, which makes my guilt grow even more.

it's the third month of school, and my 17th birthday is coming up. i don't know what to expect, but i'm not expecting anything big.

suddenly, my phone rang.

"hello? jeonghan?" i asked.

yes, i have been talking to jeonghan for a while now. he gave me his number after jiya's party, and we've been talking in secret since. we don't talk much at school, but we talk for about thirty minutes every other day.

luckily, he doesn't have a clue about what happened to me in the past. well, at least i don't think he does...

"nae! haewon-ah!" he said on the other line.

"yes, jeonghan?" i said.

"since your 17th birthday is coming up, what do you want as a gift?" he asked "i'm going to the mall after school tomorrow, since my mother has a meeting with someone and she wants me to come."

"oh! uh- you don't have to get me anything!" i said, hesitant about his offer.

"no, haewon. i insist! it's your special day, and as your friend i have to give you something." he said.

"no, jeonghan. you really don't need to. remember when you said that jisoo will get mad if he knew that we were fr-"

"no, haewon. this is not about jisoo, this is about you and i. so what if jisoo gets mad?" he said firmly, cutting me off.

"fine." i said, giving up. "just get me anything you think i'll like. you know me, right?"

no, he doesn't know the real me, but he does know me in terms of giving presents.

"ugh, telling me to get you something won't help. c'mon, haewon. please?" he said.

"okay.. umm, maybe a book? or some stuffed animals, ooh, that's sounds fun. i don't know, maybe a new sweatshirt? a necklace? i swear, jeonghan, choose whatever you think i'd like. i gave you some ideas now use them." i said. "plus, it wouldn't be fun if i knew what present you'll give me."

"okay, thank you, haewon. that's enough information for me to use." he said.

"gotta go, jeonghan. thanks again!" i said.

"okay, bye!" he said before i hung up.

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november 13, saturday

it was around 7:00 AM, i don't know why, but lately i've been waking up earlier. i mean, i used to wake up at around 9:00 AM. not that it's important or bothering, me, but i'm not used to it. anyway, my 17th birthday is coming up in two days!