Cruel Love (Gotham/Oswald CobblepotFanFic)

Mr& Mrs Cobblepot's Vow: 86- Queen of Hearts

" If I should stay
I would only be in your way
And so I'll go, but I know
I'll think of you each step of the way

And I will always love you
I will always love you

Bitter-sweet memories
That's all I'm taking with me
Good-bye, please don't cry
'Cause we both know that I'm not
What you need

I will always love you
I will always love you

I hope life, treats you kind
And I hope that you have all
That you ever dreamed of
I wish you joy
And I wish you happiness
But above all this
I wish you love-"

I sung while I looked out the window at Gotham, Lucius was on his way and he was bringing Harvey with him. I shivered as I touched what little hair was left on my head, I was almost bald.

I don't want anyone to see me like this. Not even Bullock.

Lucius had to shave a lot of my hair off so he could work on my head and get inside it. It made my heart break.

There is no way Oswald would want me like this. I looked like I was half dead, pale skin, I havent eaten in weeks, only a nibble of what Lucius brings me from the GCPD and that was it.

The door opened and I turned to see Lucius and Harvey, Harv frowned when he seen me and walked towards me "Nessita ...I- you look like hell" he said truthfully and walked towards me, he wrapped a arm around me.

I hugged back with what little strength I had "Thanks Harvey."

He pulled away and looked at my radio "Why are you listening to this?" he asked and pulled the plug from the wall making the song stop  "It does you no good. It just makes you depressed."

I went to the hospital-like bed and sat in it I stared at Harvey as Lucius readied his tools "But its how I feel Harv. It is about someone who realizes that she is not the best fit for her lover, and makes a sacrifice for his happiness" I said and Harvey gave me a confused look, I threw my hands up in aggravation "I'm not good for Oswald. He deserves better ...and maybe Draven does too. I'm making a sacrifice here, if Lucius does one wrong move on my brain ..."

Harvey patted my head "He won't. And I love you like a daughter Ness ..but I can't watch this" he said and turned around as Lucius numbed me and my head so I wouldn't feel any pain.

-----Oswald-----

"Oh yes I'm the great pretender (ooh ooh)
Pretending I'm doing well (ooh ooh)
My need is such I pretend too much
I'm lonely but no one can tell

Oh yes I'm the great pretender (ooh ooh)
Adrift in a world of my own (ooh ooh)
I play the game but to my real shame
You've left me to dream all alone

Too real is this feeling of make believe
Too real when I feel what my heart can't conceal

Ooh ooh yes I'm the great pretender (ooh ooh)
Just laughing and gay like a clown (ooh ooh)
I seem to be what I'm not (you see)
I'm wearing my heart like a crown
Pretending that you're still around

Yeah ooh hoo
Too real when I feel what my heart can't conceal

Oh yes I'm the great pretender
Just laughing and gay like a clown (ooh ooh)
I seem to be what I'm not you see
I'm wearing my heart like a crown
Pretending that you're
Pretending that you're still around."

"Why do you keep listening to that song on repeat? It gets annoying, Penguin."

I stared at the baby in my arms as I hit the radio and it played again "Because it fits my mood. For now" I said in a tone and looked down at Draven who was staring up at me.

Barbara rolled her eyes "Look, Oswald. We all know Nessita left you to go fix what ever the hell is wrong with her. Its not like she left you forever."

"The song means, to me" I said in a tone so she would know I was being serious "You can pretend. You might be proud of your heart, wearing it like a crown, but ...you know it is broken. And you have to wear that mask." I put Draven in his car seat and smiled at Barbara "It is  all about masks, my dear. We all wear them to hide what we truly feel."

She just stared at me for a moment and rolled her eyes "That ...makes no damn sense at all" she said and walked off. I grinned.

When does anything make sense in this City?

----Nessita-----

"Apparently when the chips was entered your brain it meased up where Tetch had hynotized you years ago. You feel emotions from back then mixed with the chips and ...you feel the need to hurt Oswald."

I atared at Lucius as Harvey looked between us "Can you fix it? As much as I hate the little ...bird, clearly being away from him and Draven isnt good on Nessita" he said and waved a hand in my direction.

I looked at the floor "I'm fine."

"No you are not-"

Lucius stepped in "There may be a way but ...it could harm the brain. Make you forget some things, but if I am careful you wont get hurt at all."

"You can reverse it? Even the hypnotized shit Tetch did?" Harvey asked confused.

"She was already almost out of that stage. If I pull every chip out she may be the old Nessita again."

Harvey looked at me "Is that good or bad?"

I slapped him on the head and looked at Lucius with a nod "Do it. I'll take the risks."

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(CUE GOTHAM ENDING! Sorry had to...)