My Favorite Song

Chapter 10

Finn

I’m standing there watching Rachel and the band finish their last song of the night but I am still thinking about the song that she sung and the way her eyes never left mine. I knew that song would be perfect. Don’t get me wrong I’m not the kind of guy that writes songs but those words were exactly how I feel about Rachel. 

I see her getting ready to hop off the stage and I take a step forward to go to her hoping that she might dance with me when Quinn's hand on my arm stops me. Before I know what’s going on she’s kissing me and I’m so stunned I don’t know what to do so I just stand there. But when I feel her swipe her tongue on my lower lip reasoning comes back to me and I pull away. 

‘Quinn what the hell was that?’ I say to her and for the first time I meet her eyes. 

She’s looking up at me with a small smile on her face ‘that was a kiss Finn. A good one too’ she tells me. 

‘Why would you kiss me?’ I ask her then. Have I been mistaking her clinginess for worry over loosing her friend when she’s probably just decided that now I don’t look like such a geek she wants me for herself. 

‘God Finn buy a clue’ she laughs ‘I like you. I have for quite a while’ she adds. 

I don’t know what to say to that. Could I have missed the signs? No that’s not possible. 

‘So do you think we could give it a go?’ she asks me then and I just know that I’m standing there with my mouth open in shock. 

‘I, I, I’ve gotta go’ I tell her and quickly walk off before she can stop me. 

This cant be happening is all I think to myself as I make my way towards the stage. I need to see Rachel she’ll make everything better when I see her beautiful face. 

‘Hey Santana’ I call out. She turns to look at me with, wait is that a scowl. 

‘What do you want Finn?’ she asks me tiredly. 

‘Is Rachel around?’ I ask her. 

‘She left’ she tells me. 

‘Why?’ I ask confused. Rachel loves to dance she never leaves these things early. 'When?’ I ask her then. 

‘Oh you were other wise occupied’ she tells me with a raised eyebrow and then I realise what’s she’s getting at. They saw it. They saw Quinn kiss me which means Rachel probably saw it too. Shit. 

Rachel

I’m so glad that I brought my car tonight and was able to escape the party quickly. I fight the tears until I finish the 10 minute drive back to my house, I know that my parents wont be home so I don’t have to worry about their questions. When I finally reach my room though I don’t turn on the light I fling myself into the bed and let the tears fall. They quickly turn in to sobs and once again I cant believe that I opened myself to have my heart broken. 

There are a tonne of guys in Lima and the one that I least expected to break my heart did it the easiest. I cant deny the fact that I made it very easy for him considering the fact that he’s the only one I ever contemplated really letting into my life in the first place. 

But regardless of the fact that I saw him with someone else tonight what hurts the most is that he lied to me. I asked him yesterday if there was something going on with him and Quinn and he told me there wasn’t. Yet tonight he’s kissing her in front of me at my gig. Is he that oblivious to my feelings? I never thought that Finn Hudson was a liar; I would have staked my life on the fact that Finn is the most caring, sensitive guy in Lima. Was I that wrong? My head is saying definitely but my heart is screaming no despite the fact it feels like it’s broken in two at the moment. 

Ring Ring 

I hear my phone ring but decided against answering it knowing that it’s probably just Santana checking up on me and as much as I love my best friend I really cant deal with her right at the moment. 

‘Hi you’ve reached Rachel, leave me a message’ I hear the answering machine click on. 

‘Rachel are you there?’ I hear Finn's voice. ‘If your there will you please pick up’ I hear his voice again. I know I should pick it up and give him the chance to explain but my body just wont move. I realise that Finn probably doesn’t have a clue how I feel about him and that maybe it’s for the best, that I was fooling myself into thinking that he could like me, when he could have someone as beautiful at Quinn Fabray.

‘Ok you obviously aren’t there yet. Can you please call me as soon as you get this message I’m worried about you’ 

I don’t remember how long I cried that night before I fell asleep but I do know that when I looked in the mirror the next morning I didn’t like what I saw and swore to myself that I wouldn’t let someone hurt me like that again.