Once Bullied (Book 2)

{15}: letting things go

*Five months later*

SUMMERS POV

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Things are getting dull now since I really don't have anyone I said my goodbyes to my parents I moved away to my dorm in college I room mate with a giddy girl with B.T.S posters up on her side of the wall, where is Carter?. well he's in the same college as me he moved on got a girlfriend and everything new friends too. I still cry over him sometimes. I still have the note he wrote me five months ago.

"Miss write?" I snapped out my trance and looked at my teacher everyone's heads were turned towards me making me shift in my seat.

"Y-yes Mr. Moore".

"are you paying attention in my class we have a test next week so listen up okay" he didn't wait for my reply he got back to his lesson, I keep my head down all day people bumping into me not saying sorry it was my break and I wanted to sleep I reached my floor hearing my name in someone's mouth.

"yeah that summer girl was obsessed with my boyfriend" I snapped my eyes to her tall figure she has a tan with long blonde hair and fake nails I tied my hair up shoving my books in my bag going up to her, I tapped her shoulder lightly she turned around.

"what" she said rudely, remember summer this isn't high school.

"I just wanna say your.....really pretty" I forced out my eye twitched she faked smiled at me feeling on her hair pulling out a piece of bubble gum chewing it in my face.

"well, thank I guess. your not so bad yourself um...?"

"summer" I smirked  at her face she choked on her bubble gum her friend was patting her back.

"your S-Summer" I shook my head slowly.

"finally nice to meet Carters girlfriend" she flipped her hair back shoving her friend aside getting in my face.

"I really don't like you, how did you become Carter's friend anyway... wait don't tell I don't like your voice" she laughed loud making her follower laugh with her I crossed my arms over my chest I spotted Carter coming towards us my eyes teared up I let my hair down making it fall down my face I turned around not wanting to see his face.

"hey babe, who's that you were talking to" my heart broke at what he said I guess he doesn't remember me anymore.

"oh that's... summer a girl who's a nobody don't worry about her babe" she kissed him on the lips and smirked in the kiss he looked my way and waved, I didn't return it his smile faded away when I walked away slamming my door sitting on my bed I threw my bag on the floor wiping away a tear that slipped away my room mate never comes here on break time I really never see her anywhere.

I need to let things from the past he's not mine and he'll never be mine so why is my heart beating so damn fast, my hands sweat and my eye twitches every time I hear his name I just want to crawl in a hole and die in it never come back up the last words he said to me broke me.

"I should of never made friends with you summer". and the sad part is I told him I loved him and all he did was widen his eyes and look at me like that's the biggest word I said, a knock sounded at the door making me wonder who it was I got up opening it I didn't look up though because I already knew who it was.

"you can't be here carter" he pushed me in my dorm and closed the door.

"we need to talk now" I shrugged my shoulders sitting on my bed.

"you can't just walk up to my girlfriend and talk how you want to summer" I sighed loudly.

"please save the bullshit Carter and get out" I opened my door still not looking at his face shoving him out my door and slamming it shut he banged on it shouting.

"stay away from my girlfriend!".

"stay out my life!".

"I will" he said walking away, I made sure he was gone away from the damn door not lurking around anywhere. when will I learn from my mistakes I guess I won't because it doesn't roll back on me, he had a nerve to come in my dorm and talk shit about not talking to his ugly girlfriend I'm glad I don't get bullied anymore I should of killed him to it would of been better like this I could be living my life peacefully.

break was over and it was time for my next class I walked in spotting kids already in class and what caught my eye was Carter and his (new friends) one of them turned and waved at me carter nudge him shaking head no glaring at me smirking while I was looking back at them I didn't notice there was no more seats except one at the back beside them.

I made way in the back sitting down pulling out my textbook and pen, someone kicked my chair making glare at them my eye twitched at the sight of Carter.

"stop kicking my fucking chair you childish boy" he seethed at me making me poke him with my pen, a note was thrown on my desk I opened it and it reads...

Stop being a little bitch summer...

 I remember Carter's hand writing I jot down something he'll never forget.

I should of just killed you along with them.

He kicked my chair twice it made me smile "what the hell summer" I turned it my seat I shot him a dirty look my lip curling up.

"keep playing with my feelings then and see what happens" his eyebrows furrowed he chewed on his lip looking around.

"I don't know what you mean, he whispered " I-I thought I was doing you a favor" I scoffed rolling my eyes.

"yeah sure, not talking to me for five months is doing me a favor".

"No talking in my class!" I turned around in my seat going over a problem I was stuck on for five minutes now he kicked my chair again making me groan out.

"what!" he smiled at me batting his eyelashes.

"forgive me" I balled my fist up chewing hard on my lip.

"no, you have a girlfriend to worry about" the bell rung I got up packing my stuff up shoving yet another note in my pocket this time I wasn't going to forgive him because he doesn't deserve it I didn't want to eat lunch I had a mini fridge in my room.

"summer, wait". I hurried up and went upstairs to my room and shut it breathing hard laying down on my bed.

"you can't keep making me look like the bad guy" I went up to the door and whispered...

"Carter, you broke my heart it will never be the same" I walked over to my bed shoving my face in my pillow I guess Carter was gone because I didn't hear a reply but I was wrong.

"summer, if your hearing this right now I just want to say I never hated you I just can't sit here and act like life is good and shit I don't think we should be friends your right I will stay out your life" he walked away making me bite my nails in anger me and my big fat mouth maybe letting things go will make my life better.

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