Her Hearts Desire, His Pleasure! (Sebastian IIL)Twist (Completed)

Chapter 21 Trails end!

This isn't normal im not sure how to feel about this, I've been standing here looking at my eyes in the mirror for over 30 min. This is BS all  I wanted to do today was go out and see things, not be worried someone will see my eyes and freak. FUCK! I'm really starting to get mad. Sebastian and I although we are good, we haven't really talked much since this all happened. 

Not that there is much to say. he is a wolf/man Transformer to break it down into the simples form and I am his mate. so, in part, I have inherited some of his abilities.  I can change my eyes, feel his pain or fear or happiness, I can talk to him mentally or not, and sex with him has enhanced 10 fold like every sense in my body has exploded. So why am I pissed off? 

I leave in a few days to Portugal, which I have cut that trip shorter for me but moved it up for my family, they are already there and after 2 weeks we will head home.  Seb will be returning to Ireland when I leave for Portugal and then we will keep in touch to see how things are and where we stand from there. 

I told him that I love hanging out with him, but we have been together none stop since we meet and although it's been amazing and freaky all at once, I truly need some time. he agreed we need to have this break to see clearly and figure it out and if we move forward to make arrangements for the kids to meet later one etc.  I have cried a few times alone in the shower or on walks when everyone was out doing their own thing. 

Renee and Matt were locked up in their room for 2 days and yesterday Matt had to return home the gym and his work needed him.  Renee has been going on long walks and runs to clear her head and meet up with us for dinner. 

Sebastian does work calls at the hotel while I go on a run or walk either alone or with Renee. I have done some more portfolio work here and there, but I can't really take pictures always wearing damn sunglass to hide my eyes. 

Which by the way Renee had noticed, and I just shrugged it off saying it must be from stress and that the doctor said it happens to people. luckily for me, she just dropped it and changed subjects. 

She's been in limbo her self not knowing what to make of her and Matt's relationship. He told her he had a surprise for her in a few weeks when they meet up in new york for work. So, she's excited about that.  it's only been a few days but Matt has just become more of my best friend than a man needing to find out his heart. we have since just been friends and truly talking to him makes me feel better, I sometimes call him when I don't want to talk to Renee or Seb. and he has the best advice. 

I break my self away from the mirror needing to get dressed and head out before someone sees me like this. I have a few things I need to see before I leave that I promised I would.

big ben, some castles, and some pubs and peaceful places. I didn't invite Renee or Seb, I want this to just be about me today.  

I grab my clothes form my bag, dress in record time and with camera, wallet and phone head out. Im tired of feeling like this. Im having my fun today and enjoying it. 

++++++++ SEB's POV+++++

maria has been different since the train, we haven't spoken on things in detail since. I know she is taking it all in watching her body change like mine, questioning if it will do all that I am able to.  and I truly don't have an answer for her, I never bit her nor would I but becoming mates does put a new lease on things with us. 

We have spent what time we can together, mostly enjoying the new found sensations of her body mixed with mine a mating pair and bound tend to enhance the sex 10 fold. Im not complaining I have never had this kind of bond with anyone.