Mute Voices: Spoken Word

Outlet 20

Maybe

Maybe I'll just sit here and stare off into the air,
Maybe then someone close to me will care.

I'm going through so much hurt and pain— trying to take this shit In is driving me insane.

Muscles going weak at every little step I take,
Who's coming to fulfill my mistakes?
I can't run far, there's just not enough space,
Oh! that was you looking me all in my damned face.

Who are you to say I've been doing good?
You couldn't last a minute in my shoes,
Even if you wore the best pair in the store, 
What I've been through not even the army could endure!

Yeah okay,
I'm still standing here wearing all my battle gear,
What you say to me makes no sense,
It's time you jumped back over the fence.

Run and make a scene—that's what you do when you're weak and can't speak on me or my life,
I wasn't the one who fought to be someone's second wife!

Maybe if I continue to lead as your guide,
You might find the same shit I feel inside!

It hurts so bad,
I can't even let myself be mad.
I put this on me one after one, taking in someone else's son!

Yes, I said it,
What you mad?
How  could you be when you didn't raise him to be a dad?

Maybe life has other plans for me,
I don't want another movie,
I want real life things to take place,
I'm sick of people laughing in my face.

Isn't it enough that I died and came back to life, fucking over these niggas that couldn't make me their wife!

I deserve more than you're worth,
I will get it as soon as I can because you ain't no real good man—Your full of time loss while your out here acting like you're a boss!

Maybe that's why I feel so stressed and confused,
I know soon enough I'll see you on the news.

This life...it's just not for me,
I can't find a way to get through it by myself ,
Maybe the doors unlocked and I need to find the key,
Yes it's just going to be me.

I'm sorry to tell you that I lost all I had!
The fact you didn't even try or seem mad tells me why you're  not a good dad.

I'm living in a world where I can go be me,
Take this shit in as slow as you can,
I'm done with you, you aren't my man!!

I can!
There isn't a maybe to it this time,
I lost, but what will you find?
Another so called woman who will be your maybe, While I'm turning into a for sure ?

Yes I'm turning into a for sure,
I will have all my fun this time,
I know my heart has won,
I can call you my sometime gun!

This shit I'm doing is now for fun,
Take it how you want it, IM DONE, DONE, DONE!