My Brother's Best Friend

Chapter 18

"Jin! It was going to be a peck!" I whined as the sting on my ass was still present, he laughed with a smirk tugging on his lips, my mouth turned to a smile as I admired the happy look on his face. After a few moments, I nodded my head toward the door, hinting for us to leave. They each followed after me once they'd locked all the doors and turned everything off.

By the time I arrived home I was soaked through. Maybe Jimin was right about my outfit choice but, I wasn't telling him that. Once I was inside I immediately threw my drenched cardigan on to the back of the sofa and ran upstairs to have a warm shower, my clothes were off in seconds as I sprinted to the bathroom, closing the door and placing my towel on the radiator next to it.

I brushed my hair to get rid of all the knots before sliding open the shower door and stepping in, tuning the hot water on immediately to keep myself warm. The water fell down my cold skin, bringing the heat back almost instantly as I ran my hands through my evenly wet hair. I stuck my head out of the shower door and turned on some music before continuing. I put on my BTS playlist and enjoyed the sound of their voices filling the room, I hated being alone so hearing them made it easier- even if they weren't with me.

My mind flashed images of Jin, Yoongi and Joon as I heard their parts in the songs. Everytime I saw their faces, guilt ran through me, my heart was calling out for Jungkook but I was too stubborn to accept it. He'd never take me back if he knew what I did today, and Jimin would hate me. The thought of my brother and Jungkook hating me caused tears to form in my eyes, threatening to fall but I refused to let them, my heart sunk as Promise began to play from my phone... "Jimin oppa, Jungkookie, I'm sorry..." my words were soft and barely audible but they were enough to open the flood gates that blocked my tears from escaping.

My back pressed against the wall of the shower as I slid my body down to sit on the wet surface. I've never been so ashamed of myself as I am right now. My thoughts were suffocating as my heart beat quickened, my chest became tight and my breathing was unsteady as the ocean of tears fell down my face, hidden by the water that landed on my head from the still running shower above me. The shower was the best place to cry as the warm water comforted you while protecting you from the realisation that the tears were falling harder than you'd planned. My hands trembled as I hugged my knees, tight to my chest. The flow of water and the sound of it hitting the floor as well as the music streaming from my phone did a good job to cover the sounds of my muffled cries.

After almost an hour of continuous crying, my emotions were still rushing around my head as I began to feel dizzy. I reached up and turned off the shower before sitting myself back down, immediately reverting to my previous position. I could hear just how loud I was crying now and that only made the tears cascade harder. I was beginning to feel light headed as I struggled to get out full breathes, my breathing hitched continuously until I finally passed out from the pressure building in my head and chest.

/Jungkook's POV/

The guys and I had just finished practise for the day, wrapping up the new album and mastering our dances took so long but the reaction from ARMYs always made it worth it. Jimin and I planned to go back to mine for the night since he and Jin, Yoongi and Namjoon-hyung were fighting as they were late but wouldn't tell us why. He was complaining and wouldn't go alone so I said I'd accompany him- we were driving to my place until I remembered, it wasn't mine anymore so we had a last minute change in location and headed back to his instead.

As we pulled up to his home, none of the lights were on inside so we assumed Y/N was out. Jiminie unlocked the front door as he fumbled with his keys; he seemed really stressed but refused to tell me why. I rolled my eyes as he threw his coat onto the floor and kicked his shoes off before falling on to the sofa in the living room. I noticed a cardigan thrown on the back of it- tardiness must run in the family. I smiled to myself before heading upstairs to shower. After such a King day of practicing, I was in dire need of fresh water to cover me.