Lilac

Chapter 17

"How'd he take it?" Grace asked

"I'm not sure. Well, not bad, not bad at all, I could just tell that it hurt him." I sighed

"Oh Autumn, well at least he took it well" She said

I told Grace what he had said and everything, Grace and I were currently at her house hanging out.

"I just hate that he worries about me. He acts like i'm going to slip away at any second. Like after what happened on New Years, he's been hovering. I don't want to break him"

"Autumn, he's just trying to look after you. You can't be mad at that, he just found out that his girlfriend is harming herself. He just wants you to be safe. He obviously doesn't want to let you go but if you feel like it's too much then you should talk about boundaries." Grace said

"Yeah, I might do that the next time I see him. I don't know, I just feel bad."

"He was bound to find out at some point love, you know if you need anything i'm here." She said

"I know,"

Grace and I decided to go the library, she wanted to pick up a few things since she finished the book I had gotten her for Christmas.

"How's scholarships hunting going?" Grace asked

"Good, but stressful. I know there's a lot of opportunity for me but I think I'm just scared." I sighed

"Of college?" She asked

"Yeah, I want to go but at the same time I feel as if it's just going to be too much."

"I understand, but everyone goes through it. You're not alone, I'm scared too. But at least we'll be going to the same college, and hopefully rooming together. If things get too much you could always take a gap year. Just wait, I'm sure you'll love it, it's nerve racking, that's all." She said

"You're right. I'm just overthinking it." I said as I picked up a book.

"Does this also have to do with Alex..?"

"I've thought about it.." I said

"Where is he going?"

"I'm not sure, I haven't asked. We haven't really talked about it, i'm sure the last time he brought up college was when my mom asked at dinner that one time. There's been so much going on, it didn't cross my mind."

"Well, maybe you should ask Autumn. It might make you feel better."

"But what if it doesn't? What if he plans on going far away and doesn't want to tell me?"

Now I'm just full blown overthinking, what if he's going to school far away? And I'm just here, how is long distance going to work? Is it going to work?

"Autumn, you worry too much. I don't think he'd do anything to hurt you. He'd tell you, I think..."

"Exactly! You think!" I get frustrated

"First of all, you're in a library so stop yelling, second of all, you should just ask him. Okay?"

"Okay.." I sighed

We spent a little while more at the library, I couldn't help but think about the whole college situation. Why didn't it cross my mind before?

"So what are we doing about your birthday?" Grace asked

"Is my birthday really that special? You're like the third person to ask me that" I chuckled

"You're turning 18! Of course it's special, we're celebrating you" She smiled