The Crimson Hunter. SAO X Reader. [DRAFT].

●Chapter 9: Survivor.

Darkness.......That's all you could feel:

Cold. Unrelenting. Darkness. Your body limply drifted in the ice-cold water of the river, sometimes bumping into a rock in the riverbed, but mostly adrift in the cold empty darkness of the water. While your body stayed dead, your mind worked its guilt complex.

Pain.
Anger.
Misery.
Regret.
This was what you felt

You failed....you failed to save them. Your freinds, all dead.....and you did nothing. It happened just like Miku all over again, you were powerless to do anything. You just laid down on the ground like nothing. You could still remember it all:

The look of trauma, fear and confusion on Yusho's face, the screams of distress from Marco and Lavira, and......Akira. God....it was exactly like Miku, you lost her. And now you've lost your love.....pathetic.

At least for now.
Yusho.
One Word.
Rage.
Akira.
Ajax.
Warning.
Wanted.
Suffer.
I love you...(Y/N) (L/N).
THEM.
Control.
Animal.
I'm sorry...Sasaki.

You continued to sleep through the river, remembering everything that happened, the pain taking over, not a physical pain, loss. A very familiar feeling. You knew what came with it as well, but now it came faster than the last time: Guilt, Pain, Depression, and then....Self-Hatred. The long and painful self destruction. The wanting for it all to end because of the guilt. After all it was the reason you had....The Question in the first place,
Was the world worth it? Why should you keep living? What's the point if you couldn't even protect yourself and the people closest to you. It would've been better, if you didn't try at all....and just die.

Then at those words you stopped thinking at all, you let your mind go blank, you decided that this was it. The End.

???: .........wake up......

U/N: Huh? Wha....

???: Wake up. Wake up (Y/N)!

U/N: What? Who's talking?

???: WAKE UP!!!

And just like that, your eyes snapped open, your control over your body coming back, something drove you to swim up to the surface, like something was controlling you. When you reached the surface you gasped for air, flaing about trying to stay above the freezing water, you reached out to a rock in the bank and grabbed on. Holding for dear life. The current was strong, making it almost impossible to move without losing your grip. You were taking it slow, making small progress until you were finally out of the water. You turned your body around, you were on your back, the cold snow bringing some form of comfort. But it wasn't helping. You got up onto your knees, accessing your menu, you took out two aid items. One was an upgraded healing potion for your health, dangerously low in the red. Immediately going into the green again. The second was for the hypothermia affect, delaying it for 3 hours. You got up to your feet and began to walk as if everything up until now was being controlled by something else.

You weren't aiming to go in any direction, you were just walking. Your main goal being to get out of the forest, it was still raining with the snow making just that much colder. The thoughts of everything returning once again, of Sasaki, Yusho, Lavira and Marco....they were dead, all of them, your freinds were gone. The guilt returning and eating you up inside once again, after half an hour you gave up, and decided to stop delaying the inevitable.