IN MY DREAMS [ krii7y ]

ᥴhᥲρtᥱr oᥒᥱ

ever since i transferred to jensen high, i've had one boy by my side. this boy smelled of nicotine and strawberries, at all times. i never understood how he did it, but he managed. the boy who smelled of nicotine and strawberries, well his name is john keyes. see, i always thought john was straight. but when i eventually grew a pair and told him how i felt (a few months ago), he told me he felt the same way! it shocked me, if i'm completely honest. i never expected john-fucking-keyes of all people to love me the way i loved him. 

 but, then again, life hits you with crazy things sometimes, doesn't it? 

 ~ 🌷 ~

jaren giggled slightly as the wind hit his face, his brunette hair flying all over the place as he jumped into his boyfriend's arms. 

john's hair was hitting his face now, tickling his marshmallow cheeks until he couldn't stop giggling anymore. "hey, milk boy, how're you?" john whispered into jaren's shoulder, holding his waist tightly. 

"'m good," jaren hummed, hiding his face in john's hair. "how're you-" jaren stopped, coughing a little. 

john looked at jaren, furrowing his eyebrows, "you okay?" 

"mhm, guess something just got caught in my throat." jaren shrugged, humming slightly before continuing, "how're you?" 

"i'm alright," john smiled, darryl running over to the boy. 

"yo, john!" darryl hummed, smacking the boys back, earning a glare. "wanna skip today? all the classes we have are boring." 

jaren looked up at his boyfriend, praying to just about every god that he would say no. 

"sure," john smiled, setting jaren down. "i'll be back when school's over to pick you up, milk boy."jaren frowned slightly, nodding softly and rushing inside.

~ 🌷 ~ 

jaren didn't think of himself as clingy, no, but when he had run to the bathroom wheezing, he kind of wanted john to be there. and when jaren hovered over one of the toilets, coughing lily petals into it, he kind of wanted john to be there. and, of course, when he saw evan and jon at lunch being all cute and cuddly, he kind of wanted john to be there. 

"are you two dating yet?" david sighed, sitting next to jaren and across from the "totally not dating" pair. 

"why would we date?" evan rolled his eyes, jon nodding in agreement. "we don't like each other like that." 

"sure you don't, that's why you kissed jon's cheek and wished him good luck before his science test this morning." jaren laughed slightly, earning a nod from david. 

"that's something john would do for jaren," lui whispered, sitting next to david.david smiled brightly, looking over a lui. evan, jon, and jaren all looked at each other, nodding in silent agreement. just ask him out, david. it was something the three boys had been thinking for almost six months. yes, six-fucking-months. that's how long david had been completely obvious about his crush on lui. and somehow, the little bean sitting next to david just...didn't understand the signals. 

it was okay though, they all forgave him. lui was too pure to date david, or at least, jaren thought so. he thought they'd be cute together, but lui was just..too pure. you know? lui was the friend that always stopped the others from breaking into cemeteries on halloween, he was the one that always stopped john from skipping school. 

it was a shame that lui was late today, jaren thought. he just wanted his boyfriend here to cuddle with him, and make him feel not-so-weird about coughing up lily petals. although, jaren didn't think he could feel not-weird about coughing up john's favorite flower. well, not exactly the whole flower, jaren would've been shitting himself if he had coughed up an entire flower.

jaren sighed, resting his chin in his palm as he watched evan and jon talk, no doubt about how they were "totally fooling everyone" about how they weren't dating. he rolled his eyes, looking over at david and lui, watching them play patty-cake with a smile. he huffed, ignoring his food and letting out a breath- which turned into a wheeze. 

he quickly got up, rushing to the bathroom, wheezing the whole way. 

nononono- he wheezed again, retching as he hovered above the toilet, finally coughing, ripped petals falling from his mouth. he stared at them, blinking slowly as he watched the ripped lily petals float in the water. 

jaren let out a breath, standing slowly and flushing them down the school toilet, rushing out of the bathroom after washing his hands quickly. 

he really wished john were here now.

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