IN MY DREAMS [ krii7y ]

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dear john,

hey, john. i'm writing this before i go to the hospital, and i really hope i live long enough to see you one more time in person. it's not to tell you i love you, or anything, it's more to smack you. you let me die, john. well, let me get close to dying..anyway. either way, i guess i can't really be mad. i still got fucked, right? is that what's going through your head right now? that you got some sex? it probably is, you asshole. i get it, you're selfish, but you could've at least not lead me on. and i do hope that you end up loving me, because then i'll be able to live. and neither of us will have hanahaki, because we'll still love each other. but i will never let you near me ever again, you hurt me and i will never get over that. but..even though you hurt me, i can't help but think about how you treated me, and how i love you.
i guess what i'm really trying to say is..i love you, keyes.

~ sincerely, jaren.