IN MY DREAMS [ krii7y ]

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jaren smiled slightly, sat on john's lap as he did his chemistry homework. he ignored the feeling on john's lips on his shoulder, assuming it was an accident..until john moved his lips up his neck, jaren shifting away from him. "john, no." he murmured, looking back down at his homework.

"john, yes." john whispered against jaren's neck, kissing up until he reached the boy's jawline.

"stop." jaren huffed, "we're broken up, because you wanted to be. act like it."

"i don't wanna act like it, and you know you don't either." john huffed, playing with jaren's hair.

"well you're the one that broke up with me." jaren shrugged, finishing his homework and grabbing the tv remote.

john groaned, nodding and leaning back, jaren staying up. "what're we gonna watch?" john hummed after a moment, putting his hands behind his head.

jaren bit his lip, glancing back at john. "dunno," he shrugged, "what d'you wanna watch?"

john hummed, looking as if he were thinking. "i don't care what we watch." he shrugged, jaren tossing the remote onto a chair and turning so that he were straddling john. "well, hello, milk boy." john chuckled, looking up at jaren. "what-" john was cut off by jaren's lips pressing against his, john kissing back almost immediately.

it may have just been lust for john, but it send a spark through jaren's body, feeling john kiss him like they had never broken up. feeling john's hands roam under jaren's shirt.

and that's when jaren remembered. 

we're broke up, we can't be doing this.

he wanted to break up, not me. he shouldn't be doing this to me.

jaren pulled away quickly, pushing john's hands off of him, "keyes, we're broken up." he snapped, getting off john's lap.

"you kissed me," john murmured, standing up. "well, if we're not gonna do anything here, wanna go get some food?"

"we're broke." jaren sighed, crossing his arms and looking down. he felt so wrong, like he shouldn't have stopped john. but at the same time, he felt right. it was john's decision to break up, and jaren would never understand why john just kept going back on that.

"mcdonald's is still a thing, jaren." john laughed, grabbing the boy's hand and leading him out of the motel room.

jaren bit his lip, looking down at their hands. he felt safe like this, like john would do anything to make sure jaren was okay. but he knew that wasn't true, he knew that they were broken up and that john didn't love him. he knew a lot more then he wanted to.

💐

when the boys walked into mcdonald's they weren't ready for it to feel like antarctica had decided to pay a visit.

jaren shivered, whining slightly and cuddling into john for warmth, breathing softly into the boy's side.

john smiled slightly, wrapping his arm around jaren's waist, looking up at the menu. "what d'you want, milk boy?"

jaren glanced up, biting his lip, "chicken nuggies," he smiled slightly. whenever lui and jaren came to mcdonald's, they always got chicken nuggets. and that's what they called them, chicken nuggies. it was an adorable tradition.

"ten piece?" john whispered, looking down at his ex.

"mhm," jaren nodded, playing with john's rings before mentally slapping himself. 

stop it, you idiot. get away from him.

and that's just what jaren did, he pulled away from john, crossing his arms as john looked at the cashier. "uh, ten piece chicken nuggets please. and uh, large sprite." he hummed, john didn't even have to ask jaren what drink he wanted. jaren always got the same thing, no matter where they went. it was always sprite.

the cashier nodded, looking at the two, "would you like any sauce for your nuggets?" she asked, looking at jaren and smiling slightly.

jaren looked up, nodding quickly, "uh, ranch and bbq." he smiled, reading her name tag.

"is that all?"

john shook his head, glancing at the menu, "large coke, uh..cheeseburger, no mustard." john paused, biting his lip and nodding, "large fries, too."

the cashier nodded, "alright," she hummed, shifting and looking at them, "ten piece chicken nuggets, large sprite, large coke, cheeseburger- no mustard, and large fries?" she hummed, reading back their order.

john nodded, reading her name tag quickly. 'eva'. "i like your name," john hummed as she handed him a number.

"thank you," she sighed, looking at the person behind the two boys. "that'll be $9.38, have a good day, next!"

jaren blinked slightly, shrugging and following john to the other side.

they eventually got their food, heading over to a booth quickly. well, it was more jaren running over to a booth and john following. "gimmie my nuggies," jaren smiled, holding his hands out.

john chuckled, opening the bag and handing jaren his chicken nuggets, john's hand dived back into the bag, grabbing his cheeseburger.

"vape boi," jaren huffed, half joking.

john raised an eyebrow, laughing slightly, "yeah, milk boy?"

"where's my sauce? nuggies aren't good without sauce, you should know that." jaren hummed, nodding.

john smiled slightly at jaren, feeling a slight flutter in his stomach as jaren smiled. "alright, jaren, i'll get your sauce." he hummed, watching as jaren took a drink from his sprite.

john was about to hand the boy his sauce until jaren grabbed a napkin, retching and coughing up the sprite, continuing to cough until a full flower lay on the napkin. john fully expected the terror to stop there, but then again, john never got what he wanted.

jaren continued to retch, coughing into the napkin until he pulled away, the flower littered with specks of blood and wet with sprite. john's face fell immediately, watching as jaren teared up.

"hey, hey, milk boy." john whispered, getting up and moving to jaren's side of the booth, wrapping his arms around the boy's waist. "it's okay, baby, it's alright." he whispered as jaren turned, sniffling and hiding in john's chest.

and the pair stayed like that for fifteen minutes, not saying a word. there was silence, apart from jaren's quiet sobs and sniffles.

john was responsible for jaren's pain, and he couldn't stop it.

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