IN MY DREAMS [ krii7y ]

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john stared up at the sky, his hands folded neatly on his stomach as he laid in the grass. 

"hey, john." darryl hummed, sitting next to his friend.

"hey, darryl." john huffed, looking over at him, earning an eyebrow raise from adam.

"what's with the huff, dude?"

john rubbed his forehead, "jaren, i- it's just, i feel like shit because of how i ended it with him."

adamnodded, "you should." he hummed, earning a look from john.

"you're supposed to support me and say i shouldn't feel like shit because i did it for a good reason!" john groaned, leaning up.

"he still loves you john, you just broke his heart. so you should feel like shit." darryl shrugged, patting john's shoulder. "i gotta go, tyler's sick and he needs some soup." darryl sighed.

"right, take care of your man, darryl." john smiled, darryl nodding quickly and waving to john.

did my butt just vibrate?
my butt just fucking vibrated...?
hey, dumbass, your phone is in your back pocket.

john groaned, standing up and grabbing his phone, trudging himself inside. "hey, baby." john's mom smiled. "was that darryl that stopped by?"

john nodded, furrowing his eyebrows at jaren's contact. "yeah, mom..i, uh, i gotta go upstairs."

"alright, dinner's gonna be ready in a few minutes!" his mom beamed, earning a slight smile from john.

"thanks, mom. i'll be down, promise." john hummed, waving to his mom and jogging upstairs.

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MILK BOY (6:09 P.M.)

i miss u
i know i shouldnt but i miss u
and i really wish u hadnt ended shit with me the way u did
u hurt me jackass
i dont even know y im texting u
ur a dick

JOHNNY BOIII (6:15 P.M.)

hey jaren

im sorry i hurt u
but i had to end shit
it was for the best i promise

MILK BOY (6:16 P.M.)

ur not supposed to respond
u fkn bread loaf

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john stared at his phone for a moment before letting out a laugh, shaking his head. "bread loaf?" he questioned to the air, shaking his head slowly. "god damn, milk boy." he sighed, getting up as his mom called him downstairs. his mom beamed, until she saw his frown.

"what's wrong, john?" she questioned, looking up at her son.

"why's he here?" john hissed, staring at his mothers boyfriend.

"well, honey, we wanted to talk to you about something." john's mom smiled, patting the table. "have a seat."

john glared at his mom's boyfriend, sitting down hesitantly.

"see, john, we've been talking-" she paused, putting her hand on her boyfriend's. "and we think it'd be best if he moved in." she smiled gently, slowly frowning when she saw john cringe.

"that's fucking disgusting, i don't want to live in the same house as this jackass." john snapped, glaring at his mom's boyfriend.

"john, please don't use that language at the table." his mother whispered, shaking her head, "we- we just thought that it'd be best if you had a father figure in your life." she smiled weakly, hoping john wouldn't cuss again.

"yeah, a father figure. not an asshole." john rolled his eyes, grabbing his phone and walking out of the house. 

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JOHNNY BOIII (6:45 P.M.)

jaren
jaren are you drunk
is that why you texted me
are you drunk

MILK BOY (6:47 P.M.)

y else would i text u

JOHNNY BOIII (6:48 P.M.)

where are you
i wanna get fucking hammered

MILK BOY (6:49 P.M.)

damn asshole
who hurt u

JOHNNY BOIII (6:50 P.M.)

i think u know
but that doesnt matter
i just wanna fkn forget that my mom's being dumb

MILK BOY (6:51 P.M.)

im at toby's

JOHNNY BOIII (6:52 P.M.)

can i go over there?

MILK BOY (6:53 P.M.)

toby said ur always welcome

JOHNNY BOIII (6:54 P.M.)

k

MILK BOY (6:55 P.M.)

daaamnnn break up with me and then leave me with a k

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john arrived at toby's, smiling when he walked in. but that was only because toby gave him a giant smile and a beer when he walked through the door.

he was about this close to getting drunk before he glanced at jaren.

jaren was coughing into a napkin, and he was trying to keep it hidden..but when he pulled away, john saw the petals.

jaren was still hopelessly in love with john, and john couldn't do a thing about it. john couldn't make jaren stop loving him, no matter how hard he tried. 

"jaren?" john sighed, walking over to him.

"see, john?" jaren whispered, showing john the napkin. "i-i don't know what's happening to me, lovely, i-i don't. and i-i'm scared."

john stared at jaren, setting his beer down and engulfing the small canadian in a tight hug. "i'm sorry, milk boy. i'm so, so fucking sorry."

because, truly, it was all john's fault.

~ s o n g ; l i s t e n  b e f o r e  i  g o -
a r t i s t ; b i l l i e  e i l i s h ~

---A/N---

ok hi
welcome to this trash
this is dedicated to tobyyonthetele for giving me the bread loaf idea
and also to flitzy- for making me sob when jaren said he was scared.
uh OH 
ok so while i was writing this i was trying to think of what i was gonna ask but i remember now
do u want music on the chapters- cuz i can try