6 Years After • Completed

i. Dear Kongpob

Dear Kongpob,

Hey Love!

I'm sending this letter 6 years from this day. I don't know why I wrote this to be honest, probably to say the things I can't say to you in person (and because you're still sleeping beside me and I don't have anything to do than wait for you to wake up and stare at you because you look so handsome when sleeping). Please spare me from your teases about this letter, I love future letters, I think it's very romantic.

Anyway, happy 9th anniversary Kong!

Are we married already? Did I propose? Was I romantic? Do we have a family? Please tell me we have because 2013 me would be so happy to know that. It's my dream. I really love you Kong. I know I have been so skittish to tell you my feelings and I always push you away because of your sweet words but I really do, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I can't imagine my life anymore without you in it. You are the best decision that I've made in my whole life.

I don't know what did I do in my past life but I'm thankful when you arrived in my life. I never thought life could be thrilling but I love every second that I'm with you. I used to think serendipity is nothing but foolish to believe in but now, I hope that we are really destined to be together and not just destined to meet.

You made me the best version of myself. You believed in me when no one else does, you made me believe that I can do everything. You've been my best friend among anyone else. You were there in every success and failure in my life. You appreciate me for everything, even when I'm the craziest, even if I'm the worst and for that, I love you so much.

You made me believe that fairy tales do happen in real life, that a perfect guy like you can fall for an imperfect guy like me. I'm grumpy, sometimes unappreciative, clumsy and I abhor PDA, my friends always jokingly tell me you don't deserve someone like me and you know what, I agree with them. What did you see in me? Why do you look at me as if I'm the most precious thing you've seen in your life? But damn I could only pray to God that He wouldn't take you from me. I don't want to be dependent on you but how could I control myself when you're literally what I breathe for?

I can't express enough how happy I am that you're with me. All those years that I'm with you, all I feel is happiness and love. You have been patient with me. When I've been pushing you away because I'd been so stressed with my exams, you remained by my side and even helped me to review (even if it means you'll get a low score for your exams which by the way I'm still mad at, don't you dare do that again). Please don't do that again, you are more than the best for me already.

By that time, I'm imagining both of us are already working in our chosen companies and if everything goes according to my plan, of me proposing, we're already happily married with lots of kids. With pets of course.

(Read this part if we're not together anymore)

But if we ever broke up and it was you who called things off, I understand, maybe, you had enough of me being a diva, maybe you fell for the person you truly deserve. And that, I understand. But if it was I who called things off, please look for me and show me this letter. I'd remember this. I'd remember just how in love I am with you, that there's no one for me in this world but you. Show me this letter to remind me how stupid I am to let you go. But if it's a mutual decision, I hope we're still friends and we're still talking to each other.

If ever we did break up, always remember that you will always have a special spot in my heart, a spot only you can have and always have.

If we are with some other people by that time, I hope they're making us happy the way we made each other happy. To be honest, I don't know if I could find someone without comparing them to you. God, I hate you so much for this, you set the bar so high I don't think I can move on from you.

That's why I'm hoping that we're still together and really happy with each other so please do NOT tease me about this letter or I will bash your head.

I love you so much. Always and forever.

Yours,
Arthit