Bonded by the Blues | A Sander Sides Book

Chapter 42: The Crux of Indecision: Part 2

I hope you remember where we stopped last chapter, coz we start right there. Saddle up, we're diving into an emotional whirlpool.

"Nyes." Virgil crossed his arms.

"Help me out here!" Roman pouted.

"I like some parts of you."

"Which part?"

"And that's a wrap, folks. Can I go now?"

"Nope. Do you like hanging out with me?"

"Sure, if you don't try hitting me or act like a dork or try to be over the top prince-like. It's a bonus if you don't look hot all the time."

"Um... sorry and thanks, I guess? Anyway, do you want to jump my bones?"

"Yes.Is this necessary?"

"Yup. Do you want to be my boyfriend?"

"Shit. Don't ask me that."

"Okay, let's put a pin on that. What do you want?"

"A time out."

"You want to go on a break even before you go on a date with me?"

"Ugh... this is hard, okay?" Virgil pulled his hoodie over his head. "I just want to start this out right like you wanted too, and neither of us are anywhere near that right now."

Roman sighed. "That's true."

"So..."

"How about we try clearing the air?"

"You go first."

"Okay." Roman made himself more comfortable on the concrete shelf he sat on. "You are right on one account. I did have a fake popular streak. You met my friends right? I sensed you have a few questions about them... I dunno what they said but I guess they said enough. I was a bit of a slut... okay the biggest slut. Don't laugh, I was an idiot who just discovered I was gay, okay? It's an understatement if I say that I slept around a lot. I was in it for the thrill of it, I guess. I did have about four steady boyfriends in high school and a couple afterwards but it was mostly sex. And popularity? It was quite a roulette actually."

"Am I supposed to clap now?"

"I you wanna. Iamquite the catch you know. It made me feel good when I knew I could get laid any time I wanted. But then I realised that having someone you care for is more than that... if they care for you too. I never made a mental connection with anyone until I met you. Sure, I wanted to see if there was any possibility of getting together with you right from the first day but I guess weird circumstances kinda threw us together in a different loop? So right now seemed to be the right time to make a move, but we saw how well that went, right?"

"What do you mean I was the only one who you made a mental connection with?"

"I dunno... like it was more special?"

"Wow. That explains everything."

"I can't really explain it... like I didn't have to impress you to make you like me, because you saw me at my most vulnerable and my most heroic when we were attacked by the blue monster the other night... Nobody got to see those sides of me without me putting up a front. And I felt close enough to confide in you all about my home life... my life is full of Snow Eliteses and you are most definitely their opposite. My parents built their philosophy on fake images. It was refreshing to meet someone who threw an insult at me. I am used to people simpering at me to get something out of me."

"Huh."

"But then you lied to me, and I kinda felt that I was back in square one. It's different though, isn't it? You lie out of self preservation not to tear me down and get ahead."