𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝗴𝗿𝗮𝘆𝘀𝗼𝗻 𝗱𝗼𝗹𝗮𝗻

Singing in pain 2

"You need to leave" you said softly closing the door but he stopped you

"Please" He said voice cracked

"Grayson you need to go" you said again but he once again stopped you 

"No I don't please can we just talk"

"There's nothing to talk about"

"Y/n please" his voice was hurt tears brimmed his eyes 

"Fine" you sighed as you hesitantly let him in 

You led him to the couch. As you both just sat there in silence not knowing what to do or say. You both couldn't hug, shake hands or even look at each other I mean how could you the pain you were both feeling was unbearable. You hate to admit but there was still love. You both still loved each other with all your heart even though the outside layer was full of hatred the inside was full of love that you hate to have. You both sat there just staring at the ground. In a silence that no one knew how to fill.

"I'm sorry" a small whisper escaped his mouth. The silence was broken.

"For what" you said

"Everything" 

You just glared at him. He looked at you and grabbed your hands but you refused to let him hold them so you yanked your hands away and replaced them in your lap.

He sighed and started to cry

"I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for the way I hurt you. I'm sorry for ignoring you. I'm sorry for yelling at you. I'm sorry for our arguments. I'm sorry for killing our love. I'm sorry for not caring when I should've. I'm sorry for not being a good boyfriend. I'm sorry for not being there. I'm sorry for not loving you the way I should've. I'm sorry for not telling you I love you everyday. I'm sorry for treating you like shit. I'm sorry for the fact that all our conversations were just yelling. I'm sorry for blaming everything on you. I'm sorry for making everything an argument. I'm sorry for not making you feel loved. I'm sorry for saying I hated you. I'm sorry for not spending enough time with you. I'm sorry for driving you away to the point where you left. I'm sorry for being the reason you left. I'm sorry for causing you so much pain. I'm sorry for ruining what we had. I'm sorry for being a dick. I'm sorry I was the reason our relationship turned toxic. I'm sorry for hurting you in a way that no one should ever feel. I'm sorry for every hurtful thing I said to you. I'm sorry for not giving  you any attention. I'm sorry for breaking your heart."

He was letting the tears slide down his face with not a care in the world. 

"If your so sorry then why did you let me go?" Your voice was cold, bitter nothing in your voice showed emotion

"I don't know. I don't fucking know why I left and drove the women I most loved and cared about away. I have no idea y/n but it hurts me so much to know that it was all my fault and I was the one who made you leave. It was all me. This whole thing is all my fault I know it is. It hurts me everyday knowing that I loved you with all my heart but I showed it in a way which only drove you away. I regret it all. We had something so good and I fucked it all up but we still do have so much love for each other that we thought wasn't there but it is you know it is I know it is. Y/n you need to understand that I can't live without you I can't fucking live without you. I'm a mess I'm torn apart I can't function without you. Letting you go is the worst mistake I have ever made as it hurts me everyday to know that it was me. It was me who let you go thinking it would be best but it turns out it made everything worse. You were my whole world you ARE my whole world and I feel like I'm drowning without you" 

No emotion faded. As tears streamed down your face. He hurt you yes but does he still love you fuck yes. When you come to think about it he was your whole world too. Hell he was your oxygen and breathing was getting worse as days went by he made you feel some type of way that no one could ever make you feel. He was your drug that you were completely addicted to even if you hated him. You still loved him and you always will.

You wiped the tears that wouldn't stop falling from his eyes and your hands interlocked. It hurt you to say you didn't love him anymore as it was all lies. 

"I must admit I miss you so fucking much but something I miss even more is this" you cut yourself off as you smashed your lips on his him kissing back almost immediately. The feeling of him brought back so many memories. Memories that you once loved and still do. You straddled him and you both deepened the kiss as the attention you both craved from each other was needed and wanted. His hands trailed up your body and lingered on your jumper as he didn't know  if he was aloud to do so you helped him pull your jumper up and when he got the hint he pulled your jumper off of you your hands went to his shirt you pulled it off as your finger tips traced his abs that you missed dearly. He flipped you over so he was now on top his hands worked around your body. His lips kissed your jawline and then went to your neck he sucked on your sweet spot that he knew from the back of his hand as you let out an airy moan. He sucked and left hickies on your neck making sure to mark his territory. Things escalated quickly as soon  Graysons jeans were off as he was now left in his boxers and you in your underwear. His fingers hooked your underwear and slowly pulled them down, he threw them somewhere in the room as he replaced his lips on yours his fingers then wrapped around your body and unclipped your bra. He ran his hands down your stomach as he left kisses from your neck to your belly button. Before going any further he glanced up at you you nodded your head and smiled he smiled back before diving his head into your pussy immediately devouring you. Licking every inch of you. Your moans became louder and your breathing quickened. Soon enough he managed to fit three fingers inside you and worked them in and out. He soon found your g spot which caused your body to shake and release on his fingers. You breathing hitched as you felt his tongue being placed back on your entrance and licked up all your juices. Not long after that he had his cock ready to enter you. His lips were placed on yours as he entered you to stop you from feeling to much pain. His thrusts quickened and deepened as you both were moaning loudly. You soon felt another orgasum forming as the knot in your stomach tightened. Grayson pulled out as you both came him on your stomach you on the couch. He collapsed on top of you. His hot breaths sending shivers down your spine you ran your hands through his hair as his hands gripped your sides 

"I missed this too"

Ayyyy here is your promised smut I hope it weren't to bad considering it was my first time writing a smut 😬

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