Black Inked Hearts [ON HOLD]

The begging

U don't exactly remember when I started to draw these things I like so much and have adapted to when it comes to listening to some music. As of right now I'm sitting in my bed listening to a song with the name of 'Cradles' by Sub Urban. It inspired me the other night to draw something I just can't take my eyes off of. It just has something to me that is attached to me in some way I just can't shake off. But I ignore it going back to my daily things for I have spring break. I'm always proud of all my art work, but there is once in a while a bad doodle I don't mind to throw away.
                       
                      May 5, Fri
I haven't been drawing dark and gruesome things lately but I have been drawing things like words and dark thoughts all over my arms lately. It's always been my safe place to write down my feelings and anger rather than showing any other way. I like the burning sensation of the ink that seeps into my skin after I'm done. It's just satisfying to look at all the markings on my skin and how they represent so many things. It really is a save Haven inside my head huh? The thing is, when I get home I have to immediately wash and rub it off with a cloth leaving red irritating hurtful patches all over me. I get home at 230pm. And my mom gets home at 520pm. She hates it when I do that bc it just doesn't look nice on me. I think other wise, it makes me feel better about myself in so many ways that not many people understand. It makes me feel alive again. Drawing on anything that includes spilling my heart out on it is wonderful to my eyes and soul. I'm guessing Sebastian likes it too bc the more I become enthralled and majestic in drawing these things my friends say he looks like and words of great meaning on my arms and legs- he sticker around for me to see him more. He really is a good friend to me keeping me safe from a person I should have never met in my life. I always like to keep to myself and listen to music in the corner when I go to parties or even just in general. Music is another thing that keeps me in sync with the world and keeps me at bae from losing my mind and sanity. Music is my inspiration and my key to a world where I can be free to do whatever I please and not get in trouble or that even be judged. I've went without music and all I've become in that duration was an insane heartless monster with nothing but a killer eye for random people and a vicious hunger to kill and eat who ever was in my way. But let's keep that for another time, shall we? Until next time, inked hearts will take place I'll see you soon! Okay reader? ~Author out~