Live.

The Great Power.

I hope
I trust.

I hope you are not lying.
I trust you.
I hope I can trust myself for that.

So much has happened.
So little can I digest.

I expect loyalty.
You feed me lies.

I thought of you as someone,
I can always rely on.
I can always count on.
whose words I could trust.
I can always be friends with.

*******

You fucked up.

You changed.
You embarrassed me.
You made me lie to myself.

I am no one great.
I am no one special.
But I value bonds.
And I keep my promises.
I will always, no matter what.

You?
Just when I found similarities,
I realised
I trusted you hastily.

I regret that.
I regret having met you.
I regret investing in you.
Both time and effort.

I regret going out of my way,
Out of my way just to beg.

You were special then.
You are no one now.

*******

What now?
Let despair take over?

Everyone is lying?
Despair trust?
Despair trusting myself?

Nope.
Bitch, I won't be affected.
Wasting time with you was more or less just a mistake.
I cannot change myself for that.
I won't.

I maybe influenced easily.
I may get attached easily.
However,
With it the overflowing feelings,
which fuck your mind,
helps you grow.

I truly forgive you.
How much ever I pity your existence,
that's not the reason why I forgave.

Let's say,
it's for the sake of maturity.

I don't care what you think of me,
Hate me.
I don't care.

For me, you exist.
You were a part of my life.
I won't let go.

Let our relation renew.
I know you,
You know me.
We will act differently.

*******

People forget.

People forget their previous relations.
The fun.
The saddness.
The happiness.
The jealousy.
The humour.

Who knows?
Either may have helped during other's hard time?
Maybe without even realising?

Who knows?
There was something both wanted to tell each other?
It's too late now?

People tend to forget a power.
Maybe the most powerful of all.

The power to have hope.

They detest others for being betrayed before.
It maybe right from their perspective.
But ain't we all from ours?

Despair is a huge thing.
Having hope is greater.

Have hope.
Live on.
Fly.
Colour your life.

Despair
will only bring
emptiness.

Hope for something new.
New people.
New day.
New things.
New anything.

Hope for hope.
Despair for despair.