//you and i\\

twelve☆

I sigh heavily, crying to myself. "Becca?" I sniffle. "Zach.." I sob into the phone and let him comfort me. "Zach y-you promised you wouldn't abuse drugs again. You p-promised." I said picking at my fingers even worse to where they started to bleed.

"I know, I know. I'm sorry." I breathe heavily. "You can't just keep saying you're sorry, Zach. You say you're sorry, and you just end up running back to the problem. After what happened when I abused drugs last year, I promised I wouldn't ever do drugs again. And a few months later, you promised me. What happened to that promise?"

After those words I said, he started crying into the phone softly. "I have to go," he says hanging up before I could say anything else. I sob on my bed, in a ball, forgetting that Jenny, Lilian, and Kaelyn were even here.

About thirty minutes later of me still crying on my bed, I hear a knock on my bedroom door and the door creak quietly. "Oh dear, what's wrong?" It was Helda's voice. I get up out of my ball and sat up. I sniffle and she comes over to me and hugs me. Jenny shuts the door after Helda enters the room. "So, sweetie, what happened?" I sniffle.

"Well, last year I went through a tough time. I was upset with after Tyler and I broke up and I turned to drugs and alcohol and it just goes downhill from here." I say looking down in disappointment. "It's nothing to be ashamed of. I was there once too." I look up at her and I frown. She nods her head.

We head of the room and sit on the couch with everyone else.

"I'm so sorry you guys have to see me like this. Especially you, Kaelyn, since I just met you earlier today." She rubs my shoulder. "It's okay. I mean I'm here to support you, I'm here for you whenever you need me even though we did just meet. That's what friends are for, right?" I smile and chuckle. "I guess so." Helda leaves after about fifteen minutes of cheering me up.

"So who called Helda?" Jenny smiles. "When you introduced me to her, I saw a light in her, like she was taking care of you well, so I thought if I called her up here, she would help cheer you up and calm you down. But can I ask what Zach called you about?"

I sigh deeply and move myself to the couch, Lilian passing me a box of tissues just in case I start crying. And I feel bad because only Lilian is going to understand. I never told Jenny the full story of my drug addiction because she and her mom would freak and Lilian was there for me before I ended it all.

"So Kaelyn, we have a tiny friend group. Let me start there. Lilian, Jenny, a great guy named Casey, Zach, and I. A couple of days ago, he fought my ex-boyfriend, Tyler. I've known both of them since elementary school and Tyler is this, huge dick."

"Anyway, the reason they fought was that Zach said some very awful things, which I just found out what he said. I don't think that Zach knew that Tyler didn't tell me any specifics but long story short Zach told the football team about my alcoholic dad and how much of a crazy, psychotic bitch I was." I sniffle and I wipe my eyes with a tissue from tears. "That's why there have been so many rumors around school about me, and that's why the fight happened." Lilian frowns and holds my hand. "But why would Zach say such things? That's not like him?"

I hesitate with a lump in my throat. "H-he was high. And he was drunk. He did drugs and alcohol and anything else you could think of the night before. all of this happened. And Lili, you know he promised to me." I start sobbing and put my head onto Lili's shoulder. "It's okay, shh." She says hugging my face. Jenny and Kaelyn were upset, and Jenny started to tear up. After about an hour, I fell asleep on Lilian's shoulder but I'm waking up to be on my bed. Next to me, was Jenny and on the pullout couch, was Lili and Kaelyn. I yawn, rub my eyes, and fall back asleep.

I wake up and yawn. I wipe my nose and I pick up my phone and take it off of the charger and look at the time.

"5:30-shit! Jenny wake up!" School starts at 7 and it takes thirty minutes to get ready and about 45 minutes to get there if we walk. Jenny rubs her face and looks at her home screen. "Becca we've got like an hour and a half." I get out of bed and walk into the living room. I tap Kaelyn and I tap Lili. "Hey Kaelyn, we've gotta go to school. Lil comes on get up!" Lilian groans and rolls over.

After about fifteen minutes, both Lilian and Jenny are up and moving. "How far is Boulangerie et Café from here?" Lilian asks rubbing her eyes. "Um, about twenty minutes?" I laugh. "Better get ready quick then."

I go into one of my clothing bags and pick out a black hoodie with a pair of leggings. I pull a pair of socks and set them on my bed and head to the bathroom to cover up any bruises from my dad. The door cracks open and I quickly pull my shirt down. "What were you doing?" Jenny asks. "Nothing! Just putting deodorant on." Jenny raises an eyebrow. "With foundation?" I sigh. "No."

I start sobbing softly and Jenny walks over to me and hugs me. "What is it?" She asks comforting me. I didn't want Jenny to find out that I was being abused at home, especially like this.

I lift my shirt and let her see all of the bruises and bumps and scars on my body from my dad. Jenny covers her mouth and starts silently crying to herself. She brings me into a tiny hug and holds me and lets me. cry into a little ball.

"Who hurt you? I will get to the bottom of it and I will have them pay the consequences." I sat there silently biting my lip not wanting to tell her. "You're not hurting yourself again, right? I know you're going through a lot but your one year is coming up soon and I want you to be happy."

I sigh. "I know." I sniffle. "I promised you that I would never hurt myself again. I still have that promise inside of me." I say and blow my nose.

After a few minutes of comforting me, she brings me into a hug. "Now come on. Let's finish getting ready for school." She says smiling.