This chapter is really long to make up for the days I've missed and because the last one was so short.
(Over text)
Jacob: Hey, do you want to go do something today?
Me: Ya sure, what do you want to do?
Jacob: Idk we can watch a movie at my house if you want.
Me: Sure.
Jacob: Okay, bye love you!
Me: love you too!
Jacob: Hey do you want to bring Captain with you?
Me: Ya.
(End of text)
I got ready to go, grabbed Captains leash and walked over to Jacob's house.
I got there and Jacob opened the door, Captain immediately jumped on Jacob knocking him to the ground.
Me: Umm I think he missed you Jacob.
Jacob: Ya, maybe just a little.
We both just laughed and watched a movie while Captain at all the popcorn. 🙄😂
The next day I got up and went to school. It was wired though because I didn't see Bill at all, i mean in a way it's good, but it kind of worries me not knowing what he's doing.
After I got home I was sitting in my bed scrolling through Instagram because I couldn't sleep when I heard a knock on the door.
My sense: What the f*** it's 2:30 in the morning and it's a school night.
As soon as Captain heard the knock, he started going crazy like he knew who was at the door. I got a little nervous and walked downstairs quietly so I didn't wake up Cody or my parents.
I got to the door and opened it and saw Josh standing right in front of me, before I could say anything he just rapped me in his arms.
Josh: Mckinsey, I have missed you so much.
Me: Josh! Wait, what are you doing here and how did you know were I lived?
Josh: That doesn't matter right now.
Me: Why?
Josh: Because I have something very important to tell you.
Me: Well get on with it.
Josh: Madison's brother is alive.
Me: Jason?
Josh: Umm he's the only brother she has.
Me: But, how we saw him. He got shot in the head, he was dead.
Josh: I don't know.
Me: Have you talked to him yet?
Josh: No. He's not in Roseville anymore, Madison's family is moving to California and so is Maddie.
Me: What? Wait are you gonna stay?
Josh: I haven't decided yet, but if I do you and I could be together again.
Me: Josh I can't. I really like you, but I think it would be better if we just stay friends.
Josh: What, why?
Me: Because I-
Josh: What?
Me: I like someone else.
Josh: What!
Me: I still like you, but I'm dating the person I like now and he's helped me a lot.
Josh: With what?
Me: Bill came back here.
Josh: What?
Me: Josh just please don't make this any worse than what it is.
Josh: Okay, fine. I just wanted you to know if you ever need me I will here, because I still care about you.
Josh stormed off and I just went back inside.
There was a part of me that wanted to go with Josh, but at the same time I couldn't just leave Jacob. I love Jacob so much, but those feelings for Josh didn't just go away when I left.
My sense: Sh*** it freaking 4:00 in the morning.
I woke up at 6:00 with only 2 hours of sleep in me, could barely see or think straight.
~ at school
I was standing by my locker and Jacob came up and kissed me.
Jacob: Hey.
Me: Hey.
Jacob: Are you okay, you look tired.
Me: I only got 2 house of sleep last night.
Jacob: Why?
Me: I couldn't sleep.
Jacob: And.
Me: I just couldn't sleep.
Jacob: Come on, I know you better than that. What's wrong?
Me: Someone showed up at my house last night.
Jacob: Who Bill?
Me: No Josh.
Jacob: Who's that?
Me: He was my old boyfriend, but we broke up because I moved.
Jacob: What is he doing here?
Me: He wanted to tell me something (I told him the whole story about why I had to move and Madison's brother) He helped me get through a lot.
Jacob: Okay, but why did he have to tell you at 2:30 in the morning?
Me: I don't know I didn't ask. Why does it matter?
Jacob: Because I don't trust him.
Me: Well I do and you've never even met him.
Jacob: I know you do, I just keep watching you get hurt and I'm worried your going to get hurt again. You won't talk to me and I don't know how to help you.
Me: Jacob I haven't told you the whole story yet because I'm not comfortable telling my story, I've never told everybody my whole story.
Jacob: Mckinsey I'm okay with your history because it made you who you are today and I love you. Do you still like Josh?
Me: Jacob the feelings for Josh didn't just go away, but if it came between you and Josh I would pick you.
Jacob: Okay, I trust you.
