Diet | K.TH (REWRITING)

Chapter 8: Mess

My alarm squawked as if was meant to ruin my life. The annoying thing screaming for me to answer its becking call as it pleases. I move my hand to hit the snooze button, but it only meets air. I peek open an eye to find that my nightstand isn't there anymore. Confused, I sit up quickly. This was a big mistake as I became light headed and laid right back down. "You're up, I see. How's you head?"

I barely turn my head before I'm met with a deep set of beautiful eyes sparkling at me. They were recognizable and couldn't help the frightening shiver that ran down my spine. When I didn't respond the man next to me spoke again. "(Y/n)? You okay?"

Clothes... Am I still wearing clothes?!

My head snaps down to the edge of the blanket that my body was cocooned in. The dress was gone, but my undergarments remained. Which could only mean he seen my body for the most part. Fuck, how did this happen? There was no way I was living this down, or hiding it. If I ended up here all of Bangtan was going to know. That also means the entire student body would find out by lunch. As I was drowning in my terrifying thoughts a hand caressed the nape of my neck, and pulled my head to the side. I wanted to panic. I was too shocked to do anything except sit there confused as he pulled me closer. Soft lips molded together with mine casually. The kisses were gentle, sweet repeated pecks that caused my eyes to flutter shut slowly. I should've been running away but I was wrapped up in him. Though, it wasn't the same as the man in the closet. Because from this kiss I could probably pull away a bit easier if I tried hard enough. The hands on my face didn't feel the same either. Somewhere in the back of my mind I was completely disappointed that this wasn't him. But this man was obviously the charmer, and my frazzled mind was just to slow to make me push him away. Like this moment was natural.

Whe he pulled back from me a smile was plastered on his face. "Good morning, Princess." The words left his lips so naturally that it was unnervingly comfortable. I couldn't really register how I got here, or what was going on but I wasn't exactly trying to escape. The moment was sweet, and honestly enjoyable. But something was off, and felt very wrong for multiple reasons. For starters this man wasn't remotely my type, he was just god damn handsome to deny for a second there. I shift my body away from him becoming fully aware of my situation. There was a chance I slept with this man, and there was also a chance I didn't. But I was still in his bed slightly undressed. Nervousness started to eat at me now.  "Seokjin.. um, h-how did...?" My voice wavers as I attempt to question why I was there to the point I couldn't finish the sentence properly.

Seokjin smiled proudly. His hands cupping my cheeks as his forehead rests on mine. He didn't say anything really, but his eyes seemed to be screaming something I couldn't understand. Lips parted slightly, he came closer. "Because I-"

"Jin, dude, you need to get u- What the fuck?"

In the doorway stood Taehyung. His hair a mess, and shirt half buttoned as if he had been getting dressed. Seokjin sat up, and waved awkwardly before sliding out of the bed. I feel embarrassed, maybe even ashamed as Taehyung's eyes don't leave my form under the blanket. "What are you doing in here? With him?" His voice spat out almost too harshly for me to handle, and I couldn't look at him anymore. My eyes down cast as I just sit in silence. I didn't even know why I was here.

"Bro, relax would ya? My guest, my problem. What we do doesn't concern you," Seokjin dropped back onto the bed now wearing clothes I hadn't noticed him changing into. His arms snaking around my waist as his lips start to trail up my neck. "So if you're finished, you can go now." Taehyung's face melted into an unreadable expression as he left the room. He practically slammed the door behind him making me jump.

I didn't want to wait around any longer so I slipped away from Seokjin, and found my dress on the floor. The fabric slips onto my body quickly as my eyes search for my shoes, and other personal items. Once I was collected I look back at Seokjin who didn't seem surprised by my actions. "I need to go," is all I say before tugging open the door by it's handle and running out the room.

So, there I was doing the walk of shame from none other than the Bangtan frat house. Whether we slept together or not, I felt horrible. It felt as if everyone's eyes were glued to me as I walked around campus to the visitor parking lot. Before I know it there will be a lot of rumors, Seokjin could be taken down from his throne. Or perhaps I'll be damned for even gracing the king's presence. No matter what the rest, I was screwed.

My phone fumbles in my shaking hands as I order a ride back home. Classes were just going to have to be missed today. The fear of what was to come was too much for me to comprehend.

What did I do? Why did they happen?

The car pulled up, and I scurried into the backseat. Silence remained between me and the driver, which I was completely fine with as the ride went along. From there everything seemed to just slow down. As if time itself was letting me have a moment to think the world just seemed like it was put on pause. Even when I got back to the house to find a worried Jihan on the porch everything was still. Her arms embraced me as she asked where I had been because I never go anywhere over night, and I finally break. I begin to cry, and cry for what feels like hours right there on her shoulder. If I did do anything with Seokjin, it was my first time. Something that was honestly supposed to be special, and I can't remember if it happened or not. And if it did happen that might make people think the fat girl is easy or desperate.

I breakdown. "What am I going to do?" My voice is barely audible, but the question cuts through the tense air sharply. It was all a big mess. When I think back to Seokjin's room I know that I reacted to his kiss, but I don't know why. Then when Taehyung came in I couldn't do anything, I was frozen. It's like I was just so ashamed to be caught in that room. I tell Jihan everything when we finally go inside. Our bodies still holding each other as we sit on the couch. She listened wholeheartedly and she didn't let go of me for even a second.

That's how the whole day went. I sat inside with fear as Jihan comforted me. We ate take out because neither of us had the energy to cook anything, and we attempted to watch TV to keep my mind off of things. Everything was scary to me. I dreaded even going to classes tomorrow, or doing absolutely anything outside of this house. People are like animals, they prey on those with flaws or things that don't fit their standards. I'm a bottom like food chain person, and as soon as I step out that front door I know the real lions of the school will attack with their goons. I'm so afraid. I'm so confused.

I'm a mess.

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