childhood memories

chapter 14

They nudged my elbow as I slurred, my eyes blurred.
"Come to watch the show?"
A voice questioned as I rubbed at my head, sitting up slowly.
"H-Hm?"
As they came into focus, there dark blue hair shimmering I narrowed my eyes at the realisation.
"Dante...jeez...have you seen Vylad?"
I questioned, straightening myself out.
"Yeah, he uh...uh, he was here earlier"
He stated
"Here?
Why?"
I questioned, giving him a bazar look.
"He was here practicing with me, said he liked how quiet it was"
Dante replied as I jolted.
"Said? He spoke to you?"
I questioned, half expecting my veins to spew open in a boiling excitement.
"Oh uh...no, he didn't really say, I merely asked and he nodded"
He stated
...Typical.
The excitement had died down, giving an aftershock of disappointment.
"What uh...what time is it?"
I asked politely, grabbing my bag.
"Uh the bell for 5 lesson run about 5 minutes ago so...1:20, if you run you could make it for the register"
He smiled, watching me put on my shoes.
"What about you?"
I replied
"Eh, I'm fine, I'm always late to class"
He chuckled softly while I stood up and made my way to the door.
"Oh, uh, alright, bye! Thank you!"
I yelled, running down the hall as at the exact same time I was checking my damn time table.
Fuck, where...where am I?!
Uh.
I checked and rechecked the time table.
It just wouldn't sink in.
B4, B4, B4
As I walked round a corner, the familiar scent of smoke waving into my face I had a temporary pause and walked right into a tall figure.
He scowled as I stumbled, regaining my barings.
"Watch where you're going Dipshit"
A voice grumbled
"S-Sorry"
I stammered, barely giving them a look as I tried going past them.
However, a firm hand gripped my shoulder.
"Why, it's that bloke from yesterday"
He grunted
I said nothing and merely turned to see them.
It was the gang of delinquents I saw earlier, all five of them smoking away aside from one that had stomped his cigarette into the floor.
There was a tall werewolf, glaring intensively with his stiff tail ruffled with scars of past fights.
In addition, there was a meif'wa, just like Kawaii~Chan.
Long, violet, waving hair trailed down her slim body, not one piece of clothing out of place to match her florescent theme.
The remaining members where obviously human.
"...excuse me?"
I questioned, watching who seemed to be the leader of the gang approach me.
"You sure did a number on Travis yesterday, I was almost impressed"
He stated, wrapping an arm around my neck.
"Hm...okay"
I moved from his grasp and tried walking past them again.
Of course he stopped me.
"Hold on there mate, we only wanna chat"
The werewolf sneered as he dug his nails in on my shoulder once more.
I winced but made no remark.
"Yeah, what you did yesterday, heh, would've taken days for Balto to do"
One of the girls stated, trimming her nails with a file.
The wolf sneered and gave her a deadly glare.
"You got a name?"
They asked
"Garroth..."
I merely replied, watching them.
"Garroth...not the worst name I've ever heard...anyway, I'm Gene, this is Balto, Zanix, Sasha and Michi"
Gene stated
"...nice to meet you, can I go now?"
I questioned
He laughed slightly, almost sarcastically.
I didn't like the look of them, they just seemed like trouble.
"Well you could but...heh, Where's the gain in that?"
He asked.
I tilted my head.
"I see potential in you Garroth...a couple pounds off the stomach there and you might be a worthy shadow knight"
He grinned, looking to my belly.
I looked away from him.
"Balto can surely help you"
He added as I snarled, glaring at the floor.
"...I don't need your friends help"
I growled before pulling away from the vermin's grasp.
They laughed.
"Of course you do, shadow Knights need fit, strong members"
Zenix grinned
"I don't want to be a shadow knight then!
Why would I?!
To me all you look like is a bunch of half witted morons!"
I snapped, clentching my fists as they grew silent.
"...heh, your brother was a lot more cooperative...to think I thought you was the same"
Gene stated as we locked eyes.
Oh so they think they can influence my brothers hm?!
No!
Not my brothers!
Never!
"You stay away from my brothers"
I spat
"Oh Garroth... Garroth, Garroth, Garroth...why must you make it all an argument?"
Gene growled as my anger came to a boil.
However, the Instant reminder of what my anger did the day before sank in...and I took in a deep breath.
"...my deepest apologies 'Gene'...I refuse any help you offer in becoming a Shadow knight because quite obviously it is just a waste of time...now, if it's alright with you, I will leave"
I rectified myself, fighting my anger.
"Alright, fine...heh, like you'd ever lose weight anyway even with the help of my handsome wolf~"
Sasha sneered, wrapping her arms around Baltos neck.
I merely walked away, letting there words sink into my head.
Am I really that fat?
Next thing I knew I was stood outside the restrooms, and holding back my tears I figured I'd calmly collect myself there.
After examining myself in the mirror, my chubby cheeks, wide hip and thighs taking a toll I cried.
What am I?
H-How, why do I look so-so hideous?
Wiping my eyes I sobbed softly, praying, pleading, ensuring that no one was there to witness my unfolding misery.
N-No one can love me...not even my own god damn parents love me...maybe it's because of how I look...Y-Yeah that's probably it.