Bullied (A Lesbian Story)

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     After me and Acadia's s*x escapade, I didn't know if I should claim her or if I should consider her my friend. She was amazing, she was brave, she was my protector but she was gay. But we had sex, does that mean I'm gay? Can people tell if you've just had lesbian s*x? Oh gosh... I quickly wash up and rinse off as different scenarios of bullying enter my mind. I want to cry. I race to my room and check the time.

7:03... I'm scared now because school starts in an hour and I attend a homophobic college. What is life?

      I dry off and throw on my bra and panties and head back to the bathroom to do my makeup. But for some odd reason, I have the need to check my phone. I grab it and turn it on.

hey revette ;). I know what we did was in the moment and I wanna apologize for how it happened but I don't apologize for touching you and licking you the way I did. It was the only way to make u realize my true intentions and feelings for u and I'm hoping we can get past our friend stage and be something real. I love you.

My heart races and my body feels shaky. wait wait.. oh gosh. She wants us to date like claim eachother? Oh gosh. No, I can't. I love her, but to claim her. That's almost an impossible step for me.

I finish my makeup with worried thoughts on my mind. Should I claim her or should I stay closeted?

I think about the time I was punched in my face for liking that girl's hair. I just admired it and I was bullied. If I actually come out, who knows what will happen.

      I put my white shirt and jeans on and match my outfit with my white Nike uptowns. I leave my dreads down for a change. Today feels like a day I should keep my face hidden. I head to the kitchen and grab some cereal and hug Kezzin goodbye. I eat my cereal slowly fearing the day. I pack my bag and head out. I listen to Justin Timberlake to relax. As I head out the building, I see Acadia's car and my heart pounds fast. I quickly speed away and try to walk fast to the train but I see Acadia jump out the car and run to me. She's wearing her hair out underneath a red beanie, has on a white shirt with black sweatpants

and is wearing ALL WHITE UPTOWNS. Oh fuck...

"Damn babe, where you going? I was drive you to school!" I stop and watch her. Her green and brown eyes are staring into mines and my stomach feels fluttery. She's so sexy. She licks her lips and smiles. "We matching or nah cutie?" I look at her outfit and look at mines and I nervously smile. "Yeah hun."

"Hey what's with you hair? Pull it back, I can barely see your beautiful face." She takes the rubber band off her wrist and moves behind me to pull my hair back. I instantly get hot and my legs feel weird. She pulls them back then I feel her kiss my neck and her arms wrap around me. My body gets weak and I feel shaky. But I remember we are outside and I move from her. She looks at me confused then she smiles and touches my face. "Look at that beautiful face. Damn you sexy babe." She grabs my hand and moves me toward her car. I follow her and look around at everyone to make sure I dont see anyone I know.

We drive in silence until Acadia goes to grab my hand. I get nervous because we are right by our college. I remove my hand from her and act like I'm unbuckling my seatbelt. She smiles and parks the car. She looks at me and licks her lips. I thank her and smile at her then get out the car.

"My class starts soon so I should go. Thanks again Acadia."

"No kiss Revette?" I look at her and she smiles. " I know you not ready for that stage. I'm kidding." Her smile drops and she sighs. She grabs her book bag and locks her car then walks past me. I notice there's no one in the parking lot so i could at least try to do something so she won't be so hurt. I follow her, turn her around and kiss her. I watch her eyes widen and a big grin appears on her face. Her face actually turns red and she looks down. I've never seen her blush so hard.