Promise me this💜: if I die..it was in vane, not due to depression but passion, something that was meant to be vs something that wasn't suppose to happen. Look at it as something beautiful like nature not a disasters. Because most disaster are from nature. And we are suppose to look as nature as something beautiful because it's natural.
Don't take it like a lesson because there's nothing to learn from it. Look at it as a win not another loss of a life. A win of a life that was brave for taking another breath everyday. Something that was able to make it through another long day of living.
Don't look at me as an angle.. think of me as nature because that's the one thing where I felt I was truly myself around the trees and land. Something living not dead. Something people enjoy to be around because that's how it seemed to be when everyone is around me.
I don't want people to miss me because Im already around. I will become the air they breathe and the land they walk on.. not the space I once was taking because there is no space to take.
Remember the good and not the bad for the bad will bring hate and negativity... the good will be relaxing and joyful to be reminded of.. Don't be sad for when I die because it was in vane and passion not out of selfishness.
Poem-Selena p.
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I had many moments towards the end of last year and the beginning of this year where everyone and everything would effect me no matter what it was. It was hard for me to wake up waking to be an adult wanting to be a kid again and not having to deal with the thoughts of wanting to die and attempting to kill myself. Writing back then was the hardest thing to do without getting upset.. while writing this like piece I cried halfway through it knowing that what I said is what I wanted my life to be.. set free. I'm doing better now and left the ones who hurt me the most along with the thoughts in the past. I wish no one else to relate to this entry because it's nothing to be happy for wanting to die but if you feel the same you can always DM me. I'm here for your support and that you're not alone.
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Writers block
NonfiksiWriting has been a problem I can't seem to figure out anymore. It's not my feelings blocking the words from coming out. It's not my friends or family. I just have no inspiration. So here this will be where you'll see my writers block and understand...
