Changes

Chapter 9

"Counting flowers on the wall, that don't bother me at all" UGHHHHH! The only reason I wake up in the morning is because my alarm tune is an oldy but a goody. I don't want to get up today. I have to clean the house, play with my rabbit, take a shower, and then hang out with Bean. Why did I agree to this? I mean yeah Bean is super important to me and I love them but I don't want to go through those emotions again. Not after Ash.

I get up and throw a random T-shirt on and put my basketball shorts on. Joey and my parents went camping for a week. School starts soon and they wanted a bit of family time before the chaos begins. I didn't go though because there wasn't enough room. I like being alone to be honest. It's quiet, I can get shit done, I can blast music, I can drink. It's great. Should I talk to Cecilia before I hang out with Bean? Would she even want to talk to me?

"RORYYYYYYYY," I hear a shout followed by pounding "RORYYYY OPEN THIS DOOR!" That's definitely my Cecilia.

"I'm coming!" I scream as I swing my door open and run up the stairs. I can still hear her pounding like the dork she is.

"Okay Rory before you get mad I only came by because I was worried about you and I wanted to make sure you were alive and I brought coffee is there anything I can do for you?" I don't know how she talked so quickly without breathing. I open the door to let her in and grab the coffee she held out for me.

"Hey Cecilia. I'm sorry for not talking I've just had a hard time processing. Thank you for coming over and bringing me coffee. How are you?" I'm trying to stay calm but my head is filling with thoughts again. Have her and Ash talked behind my back since the breakup?

"I'm better now that I know you're alive. How're you holding up? Can I give you a hug?"

"I'm holding and I'd love that hug." I open my arms as she quickly squeezes me. I hug her back. It feels so good hugging her. "I've missed you Cecilia."

"I'm so sorry Rory. I've missed you so so so much." The hug breaks off and I can still feel her warmth. She gives motherly hugs. Like when you're a little kid and you have a cold and your mom hugs you and you feel so comforted. She's the best hugger I've ever met.

"It's okay Cecelia, I promise. But can I ask you something? Have you been talking to Ash since everything went down?" It hurt to ask but I needed to know.

"Of course not! He was a shit guy. We both deserve better than that backstabber. Have you talked to him?" I'm glad I haven't talked to him because if I had she might just slap me.

"No I haven't. I'm gonna wait at least a week before I talk to him again. I don't even know if I'll want to talk to him then. I don't really know what to do." I truly am lost.

"Don't worry Rory it'll be okay. You don't need him. He doesn't deserve your forgiveness. Plus who needs a man when you got a dorky best friend, pizza, and Netflix?" I chuckled as I remembered all of the good times me and Cecilia had before Ash. I really don't need him. I don't need a man. Does that stop me from loving him though? It doesn't.

"You want to watch a movie with me Cecelia?" I ask with a shake in my voice because I'm afraid she'll say no.

"You know it! Should we also make some food?" I could feel the stress decreasing. It's so nice to have her back.