Strings Pulled By Fate(DLS#1)

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The Dinner

I couldn't sleep. All I think about is what happened earlier. Maybe...just maybe...he really did love me. Kahit konti. Kahit katiting lang,tatanggapin ko. Basta galing sa kaniya. I don't even know why i am settling for this kind of love;unsure. It sucks. It's still here. Kahit ilang beses kong patayin ang nararamdaman ko sa kaniya,I'll always end up loving him over and over again.

Bumuntong hininga ako at pinagmasdan si yael. I am selfish,i know. He deserves to meet his father. He deserves to carry that De Luna surname. He deserves a complete family. He deserves the world. Pero pinagkakait ko sa kaniya ang lahat ng iyon dahil sa kagagahan ko.

"Yael,I promise you,I'll be anything you need me to be. I'll give you everything." Parang pinipiga ang puso ko sa sitwasyon ng anak ko "But...i think,I cant give you your dad. Ever. But you can see him,but he's not gonna live with us."

Baka nga ganoon nalang.

He'll be the father. I'll be the mother. But we can't be together.

That's the easiest thing to do para makilala ni yael si luis kahit papano.

Bumangon ako at tinawagan si lucas. I badly need someone to talk to. I prepared some burrito too and some iced coffee. Panigurado nasa bar na naman iyon dahil hindi natuloy ang dinner kanina.

Agad akong napangiwi nang maamoy ang hininga niyang amoy alak,"You look drunk"

"Because i am drunk"

He replied habang naglalakad siya papasok ng unit. His messy hair became more messier when he run his fingers through his hair. Napakunot ang noo ko.

"Why are you drunk anyway?" I asked at hinanda ang pagkain.

He squinted his eyes on me,"Why did you call?"

I raised my eyebrows,"Sagutin mo muna ako"

He bit his lips at saka ininom ang iced coffee,"Sagutin mo na rin ako"

For a moment,the only thing that i could hear is my heart beating wildly as ever. I can ever hear the crickets from here sa sobrang tahimik. Hindi ko alam kung anong ibig sabihin ng sinabi niya pero hindi na ulit siya umimik.

"How's your meeting?" He dared asked.

I gulped and pinched my legs. I need to breathe. Hindi palaging kay yael ako dapat magreklamo.

"It's the worst meeting I've ever had." Walang buhay kong sabi.

"Yeah" that was the only thing he said at hindi na siya muli nagtanong tungkol sa meeting.

I stared at him. Kumakain lang siya pero hindi ako tinitingnan. Kumain na lang din ako dahil ayoko ng dagdagan ang awkwardness lalo. Hindi ko alam kung dapat ba talagang tinawagan ko to o hinayaang magwala sa bar e. Matapos namin kumain,I offered lucas the guest room. Nakakahiyang pauwiin pa siya kaya hinanda ko na ang guest room para sa tutulugan niya.

"Can i lock the door?" He asked,sporting that handsome sleepy face.

I twitched my lips.

"Yeah,sure." I smiled at him. Pero hindi parin siya umaalis. Nakatingin lang siya sakin habang tinatantya kung ano ang sunod na sasabihin.

Lalo akong kinabahan. He couldn't say it directly pero we both know what he want.

"Do you really think he's the best that you could ever get?" He asked,his eyes piercing through mine.