✅ Bad for You// J.M ✅

7

I finally leave the school and drive home

I'm still upset with Jack and what he did and I have no want to talk to him

I walk in my house and my mom is helping Isla with her homework

"Hey J. Weren't you going out with Jack?"

"I was. But then he tried bringing Zach which I told him not to do"

"Oh I'm sorry"

"Whatever just know I'm really upset and hurt with what Jack did"

"Hey don't be sad. So how's the project with Josiah"

"Jonah. And it's going. He's still obsessed with every other girl but me"

"Aw I feel really bad"

"Yeah but it's whatever"

"I don't like how you're sad"

"Well you can mainly thank your son for that"

"I'll talk to Jack tonight about it okay"

"Okay I just wish he loved me his twin sister more than he loved his boyfriend" I sigh and walk upstairs to my room
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"WHYD YOU HAVE TO TELL MOM WHAT I DID" Jack screams blasting into my room

"What are you talking about"

"You told mom how I practically ditched you for Zach"

"Well you did ditch me for Zach did you not"

"No! I wanted to bring him with us"

"But why. Why does he always need to be with us everywhere"

"Cause he's my boyfriend and I love him"

"I'm your twin. You should love me"

"I do it's just-"

"You love him more I get it."

"I don't love him more"

"Really Jack. If you don't love him more you would have us hang out just me and you. But nope you love him more so you always have to be with him even if it's for one hour."

"I'm sorry"

"No you're not you're just going to keep doing it. Tomorrow you'll just be with Zach again. And I'll just be sad. Do you understand how sad it makes me when my own twin brother doesn't want to hang out with me. I can't get one boy to want to hang out with me just me not even a relative. It makes me feel worthless and gross and that no one will ever love me."

"I didn't know you felt that way"

"There's a lot you don't know."

"Like what."

"Well that every day in my car I cry, I cry myself to sleep most nights, sometimes I feel like I have no friends, I feel unloved, I wish I was prettier, I really think I'm never going to find anyone to date or love me, and I just wish more people would care about me. No one ever asks me how I am and cares. No one ever talks to me for fun. I just want someone to talk to and not share my secrets. I feel so alone and invisible all the time and I hate it. I hate it so much Jack. It's so hard to try and be happy when there's no one to make you happy. I just want to be cared about that's all I want"

I start to cry and he hugs me

"I'm so sorry. I honestly didn't know any of that. It kills me to hear how you feel. I know I'm an awful brother and I'm so so sorry. I do really care about and love you and I do want to hang out with you. I honestly wasn't even planning on bringing Zach he just asked if we could hang out, I felt bad saying no. He just found out his mom has cancer and the only thing that he says makes him happy is being with me and it makes him forget about everything. And I know that's not an excuse for how I've been treating you but it's just what's been happening. But you see the thing is his mom only has stage 1 cancer she's going to survive. But you, what you're saying makes it seem as you're depressed and want to end your life and I know that if anything ever happened to you I would hate myself. I hate that you feel so upset and down about yourself and I wish I could just help you"

"I-I'm not suicidal Jack"

"I know it's just the things you're saying. I don't want you to become suicidal. I don't want you to hurt yourself. Yes I love Zach so so much and I would do anything to make him happy but at the same time I love you almost a little bit more. And I can't even stand to think about you doing something to end your life because I'm trying to make Zach happy"

"I just want to be loved by someone." My voice cracks and I start to cry even more

"Hey don't cry" he pulls me close and rubs my back

"It's hard when everyone around you is getting boyfriends and falling in love and no one will ever love you"

"Don't say that"

"But its true. Literally everyone is dating someone and I'm the only one single"

"Then let's get you a boyfriend"

"Huh?"

"We're going to go out and get you new outfits, new makeup, a haircut, anything and everything to make you get a boyfriend. Plus it will be just me and you."

"You don't have to do this"

"Yes I do. I gotta get my twin looking as hot as I am"

I laugh a little and he hugs me

"I love you okay."

"I love you too"

"Now let's go make you hot"