A drop in the ocean

The funeral

The church was full of people. I didn't expect so many to attend my funeral, especially since the funeral took place in New York. My friend from elementary school sat in the second row in the church. My family in the front with Alex. Anne hadn't bothered to show up.

I didn't expect her to show up anyways, she wasn't the type to go to church. The funeral was long and somewhat boring, but my favorite part of the funeral was when they sang amazing grace. It was so beautiful and everyone sang along.

The speeches were the most heartbreaking part of the funeral. Seeing my mom standing in front of everyone, crying while she reminiscent my childhood. She had some jokes in there, like the time when I had huge crush on Justin Timberlake and how me and him were getting married when I grew up. Alex especially laughed at this one.

Alex was also going to give speech. As soon as my mom had finished her speech, Alex stood up and stepped in front of the church ready to give his speech.

" I remember the first time I saw Clarissa. It was on campus in the first semester. She was sitting on a bench studying this book that cannot remember the name of. She had that effect on people, you really couldn't help but notice her, no matter what she was doing." Alex's voice stayed stern, but full of emotions. I was convinced he was going to cry after how he handled things after my murder, but he somhow managed to pull himself together.

"I knew she was going to be someone special in my life. what happened to her, she really didn't deserve that. she would have done great things. I'm not going to stand here reminiscing all of our memories, but I hope for those who either knew her well or not will remember her for the amazing person she was" at the last sentence his fasade weakened, but he still pulled everything together. The rest of the funeral went by, but i didn't focus on that. I just looked at Alex trying to imagine what he went through.

Everyone was leaving church, but Alex stayed behind. Anne finally came to church, just arriving almost an hour late. She was drunk. Alex stood up embracing her and they sat down together in silence. I wasn't interested in seeing them just sit there, so I decided to go outside to see my family.

They stood outside greeting all of the attendees. My father holding his mask and my mother bawling into everyones shoulder as soon as they hugged her. My sister stood a few meters away on her phone, not bothering to greet anyone. This was the first time I'd seen her like this. My childhood friends stood in a circle beside my parents, talking about all of the memories we had shared when we were younger.

My mind wandered off. Why was I still here? Wasn't I supposed to go into some sort of light? My eyes caught someone moving in front of me. I looked down to see the little girl looking up on me.

"Hi there" I say. The little girl smiles at me, but doesn't say anything. "You said you never got a name?" I lean down to her eye level.

"Yes" she said, her smile went sad.

"Well, let's give you a name. How about Addelyn?" The girl looked up at me and smiled

"Addelyn, I like that" the girl inched closer.

"Your nickname could be Addie?" I say. The girl inches closer. We are so close, when she suddenly hugs me. I hold her thought for a few moments, glad that I am no longer alone and actually have someone to talk to. I pull her away to look at her. She was no longer in my grasp, she was gone. Again.

I return to the church to see Alex and Anne chattering about something. I walk up to them. I wish Addelyn didn't disappear, I felt alone again. I was close enough to hear what they were saying.

"We don't know if it was her" Anne said. Alex has crossed his arms defensively.

"I wanna talk to her again" Alex said "either with you or alone". I was shocked by his words. He could not contact me alone, especially with the ouija board. It was one of the rules to never play alone.

"You can't do that Alex!" Anne looked sternly at him.

"Yes I can, and I will if you won't do it with me". Alex stormed off. I followed him, hoping he wouldn't do anything stupid. But deep inside I knew he would.