Jobs, kids and her

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Special chapter. Regina's pro

It's been a month and I've had enough of this. All of this. Emma is back with that jerk of her ex. I accidentally told Monica everything. All my feelings for Emma. Literally the whole story. I've left it too late. I'm sick and tired of pretending to be ok with Emma dating that poor excuse for a man. All that crap about him fighting for the army. There's not a chance he did that. Anyway I'm not here to rant to you all about how much I hate this. I'm here go tell you what I did today. Today I was meeting Emma at mine. The front door knocked so I answered it knowing it was her.

"Hey" Emma says with a slight smile at me like she wasn't in the mood.

"Hey. Come in" I replied moving for her to enter. She's been really distant with me for the last few days. Actually it's been weeks. She's been distant for a good few weeks now and I don't know why. "Are you ok" I asked a little worried while closing my front door.

"Hmm. Yeah I'm fine" she simply replied as she walked towards my kitchen.

Something is definitely not right. She's never been like this. Even when I was like this to her she wasn't like this. I'm going to find out what's wrong. I walk into the kitchen to see her sat at the island looking round at me.

"Did you want a coffee" I ask not sure how to approach her right now.

"Sure. Thanks" she replied before looking forward now.

"Seriously? Are you ok" I asked leaning against the counter by the coffee machine on it.

"Yeah. I said I was" Emma sighed looking confused at me. I placed the coffee in front of her before leaning back against the counter. "Thanks" she says before sipping it.

"It's ok. Are you going to talk to me now" I ask curiously looking at her.

"I have been" Emma replied with a slight confused smile.

"No you haven't. Why aren't you telling me what's wrong" I say demanding to know now.

"Nothing. Just tired from a long day at work that's all. Just drop it" Emma sighed before drinking her cup of coffee.

"Fine but don't think I haven't noticed your distant with me" I say annoyed that she won't talk.

"What?" She replied looking up at me confused.

"Ow please Emma. I have noticed. Now tell me what I done wrong to make you distant from me" I asked walking over to the island now.

"You have"

"Of course I have" I cut in quickly.

"It's nothing ok. Just drop it" Emma sighed as she looked into her coffee cup.

"Fine. If your not going to talk to me then leave my home please" I request as I leaned back against the counter.

"Regina come on" she softly says looking up at me.

"No. Just go" I say looking away from Emma.

She stood up and walked to the door. I leaned against the island upset how she was like that. Emma then walked back into the room looking annoyed.

"What the fuck huh? Just because I'm a little quiet today you kick me out" she questioned as she walked over to me.

"No Emma. I kicked you out because you have been distant and quiet for the last few days" I replied now annoyed she actually came back.

"I have my reasons Regina. Just cut me some slack" Emma says while crossing her arms and glaring.

"Are you kidding me? Just leave" I sighed as I sat down on the stool.

Emma huffed and walked out the room. I looked down annoyed now. Once again Emma walked back into the room annoyed.

"You really want to know what's going on" Emma asked looking annoyed at me.

"Yes! Why won't you tell me"

"Because I'm in love with you" Emma cuts in quickly. She then looked shocked at me. I looked shocked at her. That 1% I said about was true. She loves me. She can't. Why would she? "Ow was not meant to say that" she says looking awkwardly at me.

"Your... your in love with me? How? No you can't be in love with me" I say looking shocked at her.

"Well I've said it now. I'm in love with you. I always have been. I told my self that I kissed you that first night at the club for my job for so long but really I did it because I was falling for you. I love you and I know I do. Regina it's always been you" Emma admits as she smiled slightly at me.

"Emma why now? Why are you telling me this now? Your dating Fredrick now" I asked still really shocked she just said that.

"Well obviously I didn't mean to" she replied looking at me like I'm crazy.

"I don't know what to say"

"Regina tell me the truth. I know you still have feelings for me but I also know your married. Tell me now do you still love me" Emma asked looking in my eyes and smiling softly.

I was shocked. I never would have guessed she loved me. I had convinced myself all these years she only dated me for her job and only was nice because she felt guilty. Turns out she loves me. I love her so much. I have been in love with her for the passed 8 years. I can't tell her though. Lola will send me to prison. I know she still has the power to do that and she still hates me. Ever since Emma's been back she keeps reminding me of that threat. I can't go to prison. My daughter will be put into care. I can't let her do that.

"No. I love my wife. I'm sorry Emma" I say softly trying not to show I'm lying.

Of course I don't love Monica in that way. She's my best friend. It broke my heart telling her that I don't love her. I can see in her eyes it broke her hear too.

"It's ok. I gotta go. I'll see you later" Emma says looking disappointed.

"I'm sorry. I don't want it to be awkward between us" I say walking towards her.

"It won't. I'll see you tomorrow" she says before turning around and walking to the door.

I followed behind her and saw her leave the house quickly. Tears built up in my eyes as I leaned against the door.

"God dammit" I whisper softly to myself as I realised what I done.