Jobs, kids and her

5

This is a special chapter that is from Regina's point of view admitting some shocking things from the past 7 years.

So hi I'm Regina. I have some secrets I need to get out. These are my confession to you all. Today me and Emma are going out drinking. The last time we done that was the night before Emma admitted she's a detective. That day broke my heart into a million pieces. Here's my first confession of the night. Deep down I have never forgave Emma for that. Anyway we arrived at a club.

"It's always strange not being able to get into a club straight away with my tattoo" I says trying to look at the front of the line.

"Maybe you should try" Emma suggests laughing slightly at herself.

"Can't. I got a new tattoo over it" I replied saying my second confession of the night.

Well that one doesn't count but still. Confession. Emma looked at me confused. How hasn't she noticed? I lift my wrist up and show her it's now a black rose on my wrist with the stem trailing up my arm to my elbow.

"Whoa. It's beautiful. How long have you had it done" Emma asked as she was admiring it.

The question flew over my head. I just looked at her as she was smiling at it. She's so beautiful and amazing. Confession number 3. I'm still madly in love with Emma. So madly in love. I always have been. She was the first person I'd ever said I was in love with. While just looking at her I realised she asked me something. She looked up and I remembered what she asked.

"Not long after you left. I couldn't stand that stupid scorpion" I say pulled my arm down quickly so I would stop staring at her.

"Why was it a scorpion by the way" Emma asked looking a little confused.

"April is a Scorpio" I replied with a chuckle.

"Your the mayor. Can't we just go to the front and they let us in" Emma asked looking at the long line in front.

"Good idea" I agreed not even thinking if it. I grabbed Emma's hand and pulled her through the line. We got to the front and I saw who the bouncer was. It was the same guy Emma punched in the face that first night. He looked down at me and then at Emma. "Hi. I'm mayor mills. Can I go through please" I asked feeling a little awkward.

"Regina Mills. Who would have guessed you'd be mayor" he says smiling down at me.

"Yeah I know. Can I go in" I asked smiling slightly.

"Sure... your friend though. I recognise her" he says looking at Emma curiously.

"I'm detective swan. Sorry about the nose" Emma replied looking as if she was going to laugh.

The bouncer glared at her before moving to let us in. We went into the club and straight to the bar. I realised our hands are still linked. Her grip is tight like she doesn't want to let go. I don't either but if I don't then it will look bad. I released her hand and leaned against the bar.

"Hi. How may I help you" the barman asked walking towards us.

"4 shots of vodka and 2 vodka tonics" Emma replied quickly before I could.

"Your trying to get me drunk aren't you" I asked looking at her curiously.

"You can't have fun without being smashed" she replied smirking down at me.

I know what she's doing. She wants a secret out of me. When I'm extra drunk I will say anything. I can't get too drunk today. I can't tell her the biggest secret I'm holding in.

"I have a 7 year old to look after tomorrow. I can't get too drunk tonight em" I sighed as I laughed to hide what I know.

"Freddie said he will look after you... and us if we're that bad. Come on. We can get really drunk tonight" Emma replied with a laugh.

"Ok spill it Swan. What do you want out of me" I asked sternly now to get this answer out.

"What? Nothing" Emma says blatantly lying.

"Cut the shit. Your getting me drunk to get something out of me. What is it? You can ask me anything" I say as I placed my hand over hers.

"Here's your drinks. That will be" the barman starts.

"Give me a shot" Emma says grabbing a shot quick. I gave the barman the money. I quickly done a shot as Emma placed her glass down. "Alright fine. Why did you kiss me" Emma asked looking curiously at me.

"Ow Umm... I told you. I wanted it out of my system" I say kind of lying but kind of not.

"But why did you need to? Your married" Emma asked looking down at the ground with a slightly worried face like she doesn't want to answer.

"I know. My feelings came back slightly and I just needed to quickly" I replied lying my ass off.

"That's all. Now can we get drunk and have a good night" Emma asked lifting the last two shots up.

"Sounds good" I say as I took it.

Ok I get I lied but I have a good reason. Emma just lied to me. I just have one question to ask her but I'm 99% sure it will be no. My question is I want to know if she's loves me. I know she doesn't but I still have a 1% feeling that she might. My final confession to you all is this. My marriage is fake. I'm not really married. Only legally. Monica is my best friend from school. Since I'm mayor and a woman and gay we pretended to date. As it continued we ended up thinking we had to get married. I don't love her. I have always loved Emma. That's my last confession. My fake marriage.