Jobs, kids and her

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"How do we hide this then? Someone's gonna notice the bump and in 9 months a baby" Freddie asked looking at me as if I was crazy.

"I have an idea but I didn't want to do it. I didn't want to do this to you again" I sighed as I rested my head in my hands.

"Do what? Are we moving again" he asked now looking worried which worried me.

"I done some research. I found who my mum is. She lives in Boston. I was going to go down on my own and meet her but I'm thinking we take a trip down. If it goes well we will stay out there for a bit until the baby is born and if it doesn't we think of a new plan" I softly replied explaining my plan.

"Why do we have to leave? Wait! Why wont you tell Regina" He quickly asked now confused at me.

"Because when I was kissing her she said the name Monica instead of mine. What makes it worse is Regina is only married to her legally. There marriage is fake" I sighed as I looked down and began to finally tear up about this.

"Ow mum. I'm so sorry. That's awful. Fine we can go. We can find your mum and stay till the baby is born but are we coming back when its here" Freddie replied with a slight nod.

"I'm so sorry sweetie. I never wanted to do this to you. We were meant to come back here 3 years ago. I should have never let my feelings control me" I say feeling so guilty I'm putting my son through this again.

Freddie walked over to me causing me to look up. He put his arms around me and pulled me into a hug. I held my son close to me and smiled softly at him. I'm so glad he understands but I'm feeling so guilty for this.

"Mum its ok. Its not forever" he softly says as he rubbed my back. We pulled away and I smiled at him with tears in my eyes. one got loose but he wiped it away quickly. "Do you have any name ideas? I'm thinking Veronica for a girl or Barney for a boy"

"How long you been planning this?" I asked smirking across at him curiously.

"I've always wanted a baby brother or sister" he says with an excited look on his face.

"Ow umm... listen kid. I'm not sure I'm keeping it. I don't know if I can do it all again. 13 years is a long time. Last baby I held was 7 years ago and that was Aubrey" I awkwardly replied to him knowing he wont like it.

"What? Mum no. Your the best mum out there. You cant give this baby away" Freddie quickly says as he stepped backwards.

"I'm sorry. I cant look after another child while having a 13 year old around. Delivering will be hard enough. I haven't made a decision yet but I don't think I will. Now not a word of this to anyone. Especially not Regina. Do you understand" I asked looking in his eyes seriously so he knew.

"I'm not gonna but I want to say goodbye this time. Before we leave I'm saying goodbye" he demands which really isn't unreasonable.

"That's fair enough. We'll leave tomorrow morning. You can say goodbye before we go. Now go back your things. We're not taking much. just your clothes and things you'll need for the next 8 months. we'll come back after that" I request while walking to the stairs. I went upstairs and straight to my room. I just sat on the bed and sighed. "What am I going to do with you" I asked looking at my stomach.

I looked across at the bedside table. There was a photo of me with Regina and Freddie when he was 6. We are sat on the sofa together. Freddie was sat on Regina's lap and were all laughing. Proper laughing. We were having a good time. Regina was so happy. She was early pregnant and having a good day. I miss that so much. We look like a family and I wish we were.

"I think I remember that day. Regina brought ice cream but ate it all because of the cravings" Freddie says from my bedroom door way.

"Yeah. You weren't happy at her for that" I replied with a chuckle but looking upset at the photo.

"I'm really sorry she did what she did. That wasn't ok. Did she tell you she loved you" he asked as he sat next to me.

"Yeah. She admitted everything and then did that. I just... I'm just done with it all. I'm done with her and I am getting over my feelings. Tell me honestly if you want to do this or not. We don't have to leave" I say softly to my son still so guilty.

"It's fine. I don't mind for you" Freddie replied as he hugged me close his body. I then heard my phone ringing. I looked down at it and saw Regina was calling. I just decided to ignore it and put in on the bed. Freddie picked it up and answered it. "Hi Regina" he says getting my attention.

"Freddie" I whispered as I slapped his hand.

he put his finger over his lips as he looked at me. I sighed and rolled my eyes. he took it from his ear and put the phone on loudspeaker.

"Ow Freddie right? Emma's son. I'm Monica. Is your mum there?" the British woman said causing shock in me and Freddie.

"No sorry. What's this about? I can talk to her after" he replied looking at me still confused.

"I'm not to sure. I came home with Rey to see Regina was sat in her room watching tv and cuddled up in her bed with her pillows. I asked where your mum was and she just said its over and she's gone. I wanted to see what happened. Those two are perfect for each other" Monica said sounding genuinely concerned. I looked down at the phone upset. Knowing she is totally wrong. "Anyway can you have her call me on my phone please? I want to talk that's all" she softly added after a slight pause.

"I actually know why" Freddie says after we shared a look to say yes. "It's because Regina said your name during them kissing and lied about never sleeping with you"

"She did? I have to go. Please have your mother call me later. Nice talking to you Freddie" Monica quickly said before hanging up.

She seemed really shocked when we told her. What are they hiding from me? I will find out. I'm a good detective. I can do this.