Trapped

Chapter 20

Conner POV

"So you will be dismissed from the exams, lucky for you" The principal tells me while rolling his eyes. I don't blame him though, based off of my previous lack of caring about anything school related, he probably isn't too happy to tell me that I don't have to take the exams.

I look to Matt sitting right next to me and see him texting this girl that apparently he is into, and she likes him back. Funny, I almost forgot that good things can actually happen to people.

The principal continues on telling me things about how long it will or should take me to make up all the missed work but to be honest I cannot stop  thinking about Vi. Shocker, I know. It just absolutely destroyed me to see her, in person, living and breathing and then to see none other than Ryan fucking Howling come up to her. The second her eyes were covered and she turned around to him was the moment I knew that I had it bad. To be completely honest with you I had thought my heart was shattered into a billion pieces before, I thought my heart had beaten so fast that it couldn't go any faster but seeing her and him together a few minutes ago proved that my heart could still break even when it's been shattered, as well as it can beat faster than it ever has before.

"Well I guess we're done here, there seems to only be a few minutes left of first period though so why don't you at least try to make it there before the bell for attendance." He says while looking at his watch. I nudge Matt and he looks up from his phone to see me standing up to leave, he follows suit and we make our way to the door.

"You sure you're gonna be alright man?" Matt asks me when I near the Bio classroom door. The fact that she is right through this door has my head spinning already.

"Yeah man, I'll catch you later, thanks for everything" I say back and he waves it off before walking down another wing.

Taking a deep breath, I slide my hand on to the door handle and turn to open it. 

Just as the door has been opened though the bell rings and I am pushed to the side by a body exiting the room.

Violet.

"Shit, sorry!" She says picking up her fallen book. As for me, I'm frozen to the spot.

She finally looks up to see who she had bumped into and her eyes went wide for a moment. Maybe she hadn't heard I was released from the hospital? No, that's not it, she saw me this morning.

She just looked at me wide eyed for a few moments, I couldn't do anything even if I wanted to. She blinked a few times, trying to decide what to do in this situation.

Fuck, I love her.

"Sorry" She says again before turning on her heal and quickly walking away. I watch as she looks back to me once, before disappearing out of sight

Its only then do I realize that I am standing out in the middle of the hallway with my bag on the ground next to my feet.

Ignoring the looks that I receive from the people around me I sling my bag back over my shoulder and make my way to my second period class, trying to convince myself it will be alright.

Violet POV

You know that saying "A watch pot never boils"? Yeah well it's true. The whole entire first period class was spent by my watching of the clock. I had started hoping from the first five minutes of the class when he didn't show up that he would remain absent for the rest of class, meaning that I had been counting down the minutes until class had ended.

In the back of my mind I know this isn't me. This isn't what I should be doing with my class time nor is it going to make time go any quicker. But I still need some time to adjust to all of this. It's bad enough that I fell in love with a guy who barely knows my existence but now to have to see him everyday? That is a totally different story.

I tried my hardest not to make it too obvious that I had been waiting for the bell to ring when I sprinted out of my seat the second it did, but the relief covered up the guilt. I was in such a hurry to get out of that classroom that I hadn't even noticed that the door was being opened from the outside, before I ran right into the person that had opened it.

Since I had put a lot of momentum into my departure, it caused my large Biology textbook to fall to the ground so I bent down to pick it up, "Shit, sorry!"

I then stood up to apologize to whomever I probably terrified to death.

I look up into the eyes of none other than Conner and see how his eyes are boring into mine. He almost seems shocked rather than terrified but I don't try to think about it too much because I want to enjoy this moment. Just by looking into his bright blue eyes I feel calmer, happier, and just better as a whole. I almost smile but stop myself when my subconscious reminds me what I've been trying to forget; he doesn't know me.

Realizing that he hasn't responded I wait for him to open his mouth to say something. After a few moments I give up and just apologize before walking away again. As I walk away thougn I can't shake the feeling of his presence still so I quickly peek over my shoulder and see that he is still watching me from right outside the Bio door. I turn the corner to walk to my next class but my mind continues to buzz.

I bring my hands up and rub my temples in circular motions, trying to ease the stress. I don't understand why I deserve this honestly. Never in my life have I done anything that would make this acceptable to have thrown in my face. Now I have to live each day with a reminder of how happy I was? Why?

Shaking my head and clearing my thoughts I make my way through the people in the halls and make it into my next period class. Thankfully it is a study hall because I honestly can't even make my brain try to function normally.

Ryan plops himself down in the seat next to me and pokes my shoulder. 

"You alright there? You look like you have seen a ghost or something." He speaks. I need to tell him. He will probably be insulted, and weirded out, and quite possibly confused, but I need to tell someone. It is honestly eating me up inside and I'm tired of it.

I turn my head to him and motion towards the door with it, "Can we talk and drive?" I ask him and he looks shocked for a second before looking at his watch, "I don't need that much time" I answer his thoughts and he nods his head, obviously confused as to what I need to talk about.

The teacher lets us go, being seniors and all we technically don't need to be in the building for study hall periods.

We walk out to my car in silence, my mind racing trying to figure out how exactly to let him know about everything, and where I'm going to start.

When we finally get into the car he rubs his palms on his pants and looks towards me. I'm sure any girl in this school would die to be alone in a car with Ryan Howling, and I almost feel kind of bad that its me sitting here instead of them

"Is something wrong? Are-are you alright?" He asks shakily and its then that I realize he probably assumes I'm upset with him.

"I'm fine Ryan," I smile to lighten the mood, "I just need to tell you something about when I was in the hospital.." I trail off and watch as his features change from worry to confusion.

"When you came out of the coma?" He asks and I shake my head,

"No, more of when I was...In it actually.." I say carefully and see that Ryan is definitely confused now.

Its okay though because honestly, I am too.

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