Chapter Twelve- I heart ?
I went home after my talk with Jai and ending up taking a nap since I was so emotionally exhausted from everything that was going on in my life. When I woke up an hour and a half later, I decided to just have a girl’s day out. I called Jess up and we agreed for her to meet at mine and we’ll go out for lunch and go shopping around Melbourne city for the day. I was really excited because I felt like I haven’t been seeing any of my girl friends for a while and I wanted nothing more than to just get my mind off things.
I walked into my bathroom and did my make-up and did my hair. I ended up wearing destroyed dark denim shorts and a flowy black singlet top with t-strap sandals with a long necklace and a small bag for accessories.
About half an hour later, there was a knock at the door. I opened it and almost screamed in delight as I saw my best friend at the door. I quickly hugged her and we both walked to her car and began to drive into the city.
“So, what’s been happening in your life? We haven’t talked in ages!” Jess asked me as we came to a red light.
“Ugh everything’s just so complicated right now.” I said whilst sighing.
“Oh God…what happened?”
“Okay, so obviously you know Luke and I are dating right?”
“Everyone in Australia knows that Kota” Jess said, I laughed along with her.
“Well a couple of days ago…Jai kissed me. And today he basically told me that I’d be better with him than with Luke.”
Jess turned to me, with her mouth wide opened- smiling slightly.
“No. Fucking. Way.”
“I know! Just for once, I want no drama in my life.”
“So what did you do?” The traffic light turned green and Jess started driving again.
“I told Jai that we’re best friends- nothing more. Besides…I’m happy with Luke.”
“Aww he probably looked like a little puppy with his tail in between his legs!” I started laughing at her remarks
“He kind of did actually!” That’s one of the things that I loved about Jess; she could always make me laugh even in the most stressful situations.
“So you have absolutely no feelings for Jai?” Jess said looking at me when she stopped at yet another red light.
For some reason, it took me longer than I expected to think of an answer. As if I was pondering on the thought of what would happen if I hadn’t gone out with Luke in the first place and I ended up getting together with Jai after this morning. I shook the thought out of my head and tried convincing myself that Jai and I just wouldn’t work out. We’re better as friends.
“No…no I don’t think so.” I said it uncertainly and Jess immediately picked up on it.
“DAKOTA. You like Jai?!”
“NO! Of course not! I like Luke, I always have!”
“Then why do you seem so uncertain?”
“Because I’m just thinking of what it would be like to date him, that’s all…it’s not like it’ll ever happen. I like how our relationship is- best friends.”
“Okay, if you say so.”
The conversation about Luke and Jai sort of ended there and we started talking about other things that were happening in our lives. But in the back of my mind the entire time I was thinking about Jai. Like, what happened if somewhere down the road I developed feelings for him? But at the same time, I couldn’t see myself with anyone but Luke for the moment. The confusing thoughts were stressing me out even more so I just decided to block them all out and not even think about Luke or Jai until the day was over.
Just as I decided I wouldn’t think about the twins, Luke texted me.
“Hey babe, what are you doing today? x”- Luke
“I’m out with Jessamine for the day, what are you doing?” xo- Dakota
“Filming with the boys (: I’ll see you tomorrow then xx”- Luke
“Sure, have fun! (: x”- Dakota
I turned off my phone and put in back in my bag. Jess and I spent the day having lunch at a cute little café and shopped around in the many stores. At the end of the day, I had managed to buy a pair of black ankle booties, a turquoise statement necklace, new ugg boots, a pair of red skinny jeans and an oversized sweater as well as various make-up products.
My mood eventually fell when the day was over because I realised that I would have to deal with my feelings sooner or later. I just wanted this whole things to be over and to be able to just enjoy my relationship with Luke again. I was so over having drama in my life.
“Wish you could see, I got an I heart question mark written on the back of my hand.”
