Chapter Fifteen- Better than Revenge
For the past two weeks, I’ve been absolutely miserable. Even though I knew I was doing the right thing for myself by breaking up with Luke, I wasn’t any easier to get over the break-up. Especially because whenever I would want to see the other boys; Luke would almost always be there. On one hand, I wanted to hang out with my best friends, but at the same time I felt as if I wanted to distance myself from all of them because I simply didn’t want to be around Luke.
After the break up I mostly tried to distract myself from anything that Luke was doing because I wanted to get my mind off of him. I figured that that my tears shouldn’t be wasted on someone who wouldn’t waste their tears on me. Luke and I haven’t properly spoken since the night that I broke up with him; except for the civil ‘hellos’ and ‘goodbyes’ that our parents made us say to each other.
At school I still hung around the same friends that I did at the start of the year. It was nearly December now- so the Christmas holidays would be coming around shortly which meant nearly 9 weeks off school. I was extremely thankful for the timing of the holidays because I couldn’t take seeing Luke for seven hours everyday, it was stressing me out.
Recently, I’ve been spending a lot more time with Jai again- we’ve kind of gotten past the whole ‘him wanting to date me’ thing and gone back to being the best of friends again.
“Have you heard the news?” Jai walked back into his bedroom where I was sitting on his bed, scrolling through Tumblr on his laptop.
I put the laptop aside and focused my attention on Jai.
“Uh, what news? What happened? Is it something bad?” I started thinking the worst, pretty much just working myself up even though I didn’t know anything yet.
“Oh it’s just um…I don’t really know if I should be telling you this but…” Jai stood in front of me clicking his tongue, trying to avoid the conversation as much as he could…even though he started it.
“Jai…what aren’t you telling me? What has happened?”
“I just don’t know how you’re going to take it, that’s all” Jai came and sat down next to me on his bed.
“Tell me!” I turned my body to look at him
“Luke’s got a new girlfriend.” Jai said really quickly, he then braced himself for my reaction and didn’t say anything else after that.
“Oh. Well good for him.” I had no expression on my face and no expression in my voice.
I was trying to figure out if I cared or not. I cared because it’s barely been three weeks since our break-up, surely Luke hasn’t moved on that fast if I haven’t. He was the one begging me to try and work things out. But I also didn’t care because I just don’t necessarily care about his existence anymore. He’s not in my life anymore- he can go and date anyone that he wants…it’s not my place to tell him who he can and can’t see.
Luke walked into his bedroom a couple of seconds later, probably not expecting to see Jai and I in a deep and serious conversation- since most of our conversations are all light hearted. Being the smart one that he is, he put the pieces together and figured out what we were talking about pretty quickly.
“YOU TOLD HER?!” Luke shouted at his brother.
“She deserves to know! What were you going to do- sneak around and hope that she would never find out?!” Jai stood up- going eye to eye with his twin. I remained seated on the bed, not saying a word.
“It’s no one else’s business except mine! I can date whoever I want- she doesn’t need to know.” Luke glared over to me as he said ‘she’. Well that was a stab in the chest- apparently I was now so unimportant and irrelevant to him that I didn’t deserve to have a name. Lovely.
I probably should have mentioned that after Luke and I broke up- our friend relationship also crumbled. We now called each other names without humour behind them and were constantly glaring at each other. We just didn’t seem to get along anymore.
“It is her business when you’re dating the girl who broke you two up in the first place!” Jai blurted out- quickly covering his mouth once he realised what he just said.
“JAI YOU FUCK HEAD.” Luke screamed
“YOU’RE DATING WHO!?” I stood up off of the bed to face Luke who was still yelling at Jai
“Don’t worry about it, my God!”
“WHY WOULD YOU FUCKING DATE HER AFTER ALL SHE CAUSED?!” By this stage, I was screaming at the top of my lungs and I was livid.
“Just leave me and her alone! I’m dating her and I’m happy!” Luke screamed back just as loud.
“Fine. But don’t come crying back to me when she breaks your heart like you broke mine.” I stopped shouting and immediately left the room, tears streaming down my face.
“I’m just another thing for you to roll your eyes at honey, you might have him but I always get the last word.”
