Frost Bitten (Jack Frost x Marhsall Lee)

Chapter 9: I'm Alone

This was waaaaaaaay past due. I know, I've been dealing with crap and life and things got in the way of writing. BUT I'M HERE NOW SO DON'T KILL ME. On a side note, I spilled hot cocoa on myself... Fall is here.

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((MARSHAL LEE'S POV))

Jack left yesterday after awkwardly apologizing to me... I still don't quite understand why he would ever feel the need to tell me he was sorry. It doesn't seem like he has casual chats with people that often. Not that I'm complaining, he was being an ass to me earlier.

My father hasn't spoken to me since we had our argument. I won't complain about that either though. I hate him, and I prefer to have him out of my hair for as long as possible. Without any souls to judge, there is no reason for me to be around him if I don't have to be. The only person in this mansion that I enjoy talking to is Alice.

She understands why I avoid my father, and she listens to me when he won't. Alice was also the only one that was there to comfort me after my mother died when my father was busy giving me the cold shoulder. She's almost like a mother if you ask me.

I got up off of my bed and walked over to my bookshelf. On the top shelf in the right hand corner was a really old leather bound book. I grabbed it and sat back down on my bed, thumbing through the pages.

This was my dairy. My most prized possession, other than the picture of my mother. In this book was every memory I've ever held dear. I write down all of my thoughts, things that happened to me, or things that caught my attention. I fear that the older I get, the more memories I will forget. I don't want that to happen to me, so I write them down. Now, considering how old I am, I have accumulated about ten of these books. Each one is hidden so that no one but me can read them.

I got out a pen from my desk and began to write.

"This past week has been insane for me. The gate that connects my world to earth has been frozen shut because of Jack Frost. He's the new Ice Keeper and I was supposed to kill him. But it turns out that it's impossible because he is immortal, like myself. I don't know why he refuses to help me unfreeze the gate, but he has some kind of grudge against humans, and I'm making it my goal to figure out what it is.

Jack is a strange person. He's mysterious, sarcastic, smart, fast, and one of the most infuriating people aside from my father. He seems to know everything about him, but I hardly know anything about him or his life. I hate being in the dark. How am I supposed to learn about someone that I hardly ever see?

My father and I got into an argument yesterday. He finally admitted out loud that he hates me. I always knew he did, but I never though hearing him say it would hurt me so much. I lashed out at him in a way I never had before. I've never been good with controlling my emotions, but never have I had an outburst like that before... Honestly, it felt good to throw some of my pent up anger at my father. He deserves it for treating me this way all these years.

I'm not sure what to do with life right now, but I can't help but feel like Jack is going to be a big part of it... And I'm not sure how to feel about that."

I sighed and put the pen down, closing the book. I glanced around my room and slipped the book under my mattress for the time being. What am I supposed to do in this place now? My father and I are at odds, Alice is busy doing her daily chores, and I have no friends to talk to.

I laughed quietly and shook my head.

"Marshall you are a sorry excuse for a teenager. You have a messed up life, your father hates you, and you don't have a single friend in the world."

I felt a sting in my chest as I realized how utterly alone I really was.

I never wanted to admit it out loud, but doing so made my depression spiral even further. Did my life really have no purpose? All I could think of for my future was take over my fathers job when he passed on... But was that all I was meant to do? That couldn't be it.

I have to have a purpose.

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I really had no idea where to take this, but it ended up being some sort of insight into the mind or Marshall. It was short, I know, but just be happy that I was able to get some words onto my computer screen and make them make sense XD Until next time.

~Miki~