Grounded

Chapter 14- Peace

"YOU'VE GOT TO BE FUCKING KIDDING ME CLARKE?!"

"Raven....please calm do-"

"NO YOU CAN'T, IT'S TOO DANGEROUS YOU CAN'T FUCKING EXPECT ME TO JUST STAND BY AND WATCH YOU GET HURT".

I know that nothing I say will help her in this moment so instead I quickly wrap my arms around her and gently stroke her back, allowing her to get all of her tears out. I quickly glance to Lexa and hope she understands my look, of course she does and slowly turns and glides away, giving us some time to talk.

"I know you're scared Raven, I am too but I have to do this, and you have to let me. I promise I will  be okay but they need to know that I am no longer a scared little girl that will hide from them. They need to know that they don't have any power over me anymore, but I need to know this for myself too".

"I can't lose you Clarke, you're all I have left", she whispers pulling away slightly to look into my eyes.

"You won't, I promise you're stuck with me for life."

"I......", she pauses and for a moment I think she is going to continue arguing, "I understand Clarke, I will be right there cheering you on, but I will kill them myself if they try anything."

"Lexa will be there too Raven, you know she will stop it if it takes a turn for the worst, I will be okay I promise".

After a while we found Lexa and headed back to TonDC, I waited with Raven until she fell asleep and then I headed to Lexa's tent, she had said to wait for her as we needed to speak about something. When I entered she was not in so without thinking I sat down on her bed, but eventually I couldn't help but drift to sleep.

LEXA'S POV

That meeting had dragged for longer than I wanted it to, I had to meet with the generals and explain what was happening and what Clarke had planned tomorrow, though some were very skeptical so I had to persuade them to see that this is the right thing to do, if this went correctly it could benefit us all and hopefully when the rest of the sky people arrive, there will be no need for war.

I quickly walked to my tent, anxious to speak to Clarke, though I know that this is the right thing for our people, it still terrifies me. However, when I entered I found Clarke lightly snoring on my furs, still completely dressed in armour......she looks so peaceful, beautiful. I quietly take my armour off, hoping not to wake her and carefully sit beside her, tucking a loose strand of hair behind her ear.

Unfortunately, she begins to stir at my touch and I move my hand as she sits up.

"Sleep well?"

"Surprisingly yes, sorry I tried to stay awake, what is it you wanted to speak about?"

"Don't be sorry, are you sure about this Clarke?" I quietly whisper hoping that my conflicted emotions aren't visible on my face.

"Honestly no, but I need to do this. They need to know that they can't control me anymore, plus it'll feel good to get some payback".

"I don't just mean that, I understand why you have to do this but, you came from the sky, they are still your people".

"They were never my people, I always knew I didn't fit in with them, the first time I have ever felt like I belonged is when I finally made it to the ground to....you".

"This is the first time I have felt fear in years Clarke, I....I don't want to lose you", with shaking hands I carefully place one on her knee, "you are my weakness", I slowly lower my gaze to my hands but she places one finger under my chin and carefully lifts it.

"You are my Heda, I swear to protect you and our people until I take my last breath, you are my people now and I support you always", she says with a smile.

"I....I trust you, just please be careful".

"I know how hard that is for you Lexa, I promise that you won't regret it."

My eyes flicker down to her lips and all I want in this moment is for them to be on mine, but I reluctantly pull myself up to a stand and hold my hand to hers, "you should rest for tomorrow, I will wake you when it is time."

She smiles and gladly takes my hand carefully lifting herself up, "reshop Heda".

She takes a step to leave but just as she does she stops and turns back again, a flash of worry passing through her eyes, she carefully leans forward and plants a gentle, tender kiss on my cheek, but even that manages to send electric shocks through my entire body, as she pulls away giving a small smile and quickly strides out of the tent, leaving me there with my mouth hanging open. Did that really just happen? Did I allow it?

I have been told from a young age that love is weakness, and I believed it but each day I spend with Clarke, I can slowly feel it unravelling. This terrifies but excites me at the same time and butterflies begin swarming in my stomach. I think I am falling for her. She is perfect. Supporting me as a Heda and respecting my responsibilities but when it is just me and her we are no longer Heda and Skaiprisa, we can be Lexa and Clarke, undeniably ourselves, and that feeling alone has the power to fill me with a joy I did not believe could exist in this world. We are both vulnerable to only eachother, we are each other's weakness and I am no longer afraid of that, instead I welcome it, I never want to lose this feeling. I don't care if it is wrong, because when we are together, everything seems right. This is not weakness, she is making me stronger and I know that together, we will have the power to bring peace to everyone.