Alone (hyungwonho)

11.

Me: I'm sorry

Hoseok: What? Why?

Me: I told about you to one

of my friends. I'm sorry, I know

I promised not to...

Hoseok: Who? Who did you tell?

Me: Kyungsoo. We're not

best friends, but he's really

nice.

Hoseok: Why did you tell

him? I trusted you with this...

Me: We were really drunk...

it just came out of my mouth...

Me: But he promised not to

talk about it.

Hoseok: I really trusted you.

Me: Are you mad?

Hoseok: Yes.

Me: Sorry... I'm really sorry.

Me: Please forgive me. I promise

it won't happen again.

Me: Hoseok?

Me: Please... don't leave me...

I stared at the messages. He wasn't responding to them. The world collapsed around me. Hoseok had brought so much joy, but now it was all gone. Hoseok had left me. Hoseok was gone.

Soon the tears found their way into my eyes and they started quickly dropping on the pillow I was hugging. I couldn't breathe. I needed to talk to someone, but I couldn't. I couldn't break his trust again.

So, I just cried.

I didn't want to move. My body froze in place, it was like the time had stopped. My room clock ticked. I heard sounds in the kitchen, but nothing in me had the motivation to go see who it was. I was frozen.

Soon I took my phone again, trying to be hopeful. Maybe he had messaged me. I opened the phone and looked at it.

Even more tears started pouring down and this time it was impossible to keep my voice down. I started sobbing, while grabbing my pillow tightly.

There was a knock on the door and it opened. Mom came in, looking worried.

"Hyungwon? What's wrong?" She asked, walking next to my bed.

I shook my head and tightened my grip on the pillow.

"Honey? Tell me what's bothering you..." Mom crouched next to me. "Did something happen?"

Again, I shook my head.

"Then what is it?"

"Can you just leave me alone?" I mumbled and buried my face into the pillow, still sobbing.

Mom stood up, hesitating. She then sighed and left the room, closing the door after her.

I took my phone.

Me: Hoseok...

please... I need you

Me: I can't live without

you, please don't be mad

Me: I'm sorry I did it.

I'm so sorry.

Me: Come back...

Hoseok: You'll have to

promise me something.

Me: Anything! Anything...

just please don't leave.

Hoseok: Don't break my

trust ever again.

Hoseok: Also, I want you to listen to

me, when I have something to say.

Me: Okay, I promise.

Hoseok: Now, I want you to

stop crying. It's pathetic.

Me: I'm sorry, I'll stop.

Hoseok: Good. I hate it

when you act like that.

Hoseok: Almost makes me hate you.

Me: Please don't hate me.

Me: You're the only one I can

truly open to... I don't want to

lose you.

Hoseok: You will have to

work for it. You will have

to stop all this nonsense.

Me: I'll stop it. Just tell me

what you want me to do.

Hoseok: I want you to do

nothing right now.

I need some space.

I'll talk to you later.

Me: Okay... see you later.

Relieved. I felt relieved. Hoseok gave me another chance. He forgave the mistake I made. I dried my tears, smiling slightly. There was hope. There was a glimpse of hope for me.

I just have to be nice to him. I have to behave properly, so he will forget this.

I want to watch the stars again with him. With him I feel free, but somehow, he's still keeping me in place, but not in a bad way. Hoseok is like a guardian angel to me. He tells me what to do, when I don't know the answer. He helps me. He understands me. He's too good to be true.