Alone (hyungwonho)

16.

When Hyunwoo walked back in, others had turned quiet. Kihyun quickly stood up and looked at the oldest.

"He left." Hyunwoo told them.

"Why?" Jooheon asked.

Hyunwoo shrugged. "I think he got mad."

"Oh... is he going home then?" Kihyun asked.

"He didn't tell."

Kihyun looked out the window and pressed his arms against his chest. "We're following him."

"Again?" Changkyun asked. "We already did and we found out nothing..."

"Yeah, but this time we're following him because we want to apologize." Kihyun said with determination. "Let's go."

Others nodded. Hyunwoo didn't really like the idea, but he still went with it, just because he really wanted to apologize.

"He must be still close, right?" Jooheon asked as he locked the door of his home.

"I think so." Hyunwoo said.

The boys walked in the same direction that Hyungwon had left to. They walked a little faster than usual, so they would catch up.

It was already dark outside, but street lights gave enough light to see forward. The houses around were dark, people seemed to be sleeping already.

Hyunwoo noticed someone in the distance and he held his hand up.

"Shh... I think that's him." He announced and others gathered to take a look.

"Yeah, no one else is that lanky." Changkyun muttered.

"Okay, so... now we'll follow him? Like quietly?" Minhyuk asked.

Kihyun nodded. "Let's see where he's going."

And so the boys kept following their friend. After fifteen minutes of walking behind Hyungwon, they noticed him acting weird.

"What's he doing?" Jooheon asked.

"I have no clue... he's talking? Is he on phone?" Minhyuk whispered.

Changkyun shook his head. "I don't see his hand up."

"Hmm... let's just follow him." Kihyun said.

"Alright."

I knew it was childish to leave like that, but I really wanted to see Hoseok. They had betrayed me. I didn't want to get hurt.

My journey started by walking through the neighborhood. I noticed many houses being dark, which was a little odd, because it was only 10pm. Street lights flickered above me as I went past them.

Soon, I felt sad. I didn't know where it came from, but it was uncomfortable. Anyway, I knew Hoseok would soon be with me, so I didn't worry too much.

Then I saw him. He was walking towards me in the dark.

"Hoseok, you came." I said, smiling, as he reached me.

"I did, because I promised so." Hoseok said.

My smile got even wider.

"Now, let's go to the house. There's no clouds today, so we should be able to see the stars." He said.

I grabbed his hand. Hoseok looked at it for a few seconds, but then he turned his eyes onto the sidewalk. We walked, holding hands.

"Did you guys fight?" He asked.

"No, why ask?"

"You seem a little... distant."

I shook my head. "I'm just happy to be with you."

Hoseok laughed. "Well, it's nice to hear."

The warmth, that Hoseok was spreading around him, made me feel comfortable. Even in this cold night, I felt warm, because I was beside him.

Hoseok's fingers were interwined with mine. 

Nothing can change this. Nothing will make me change my mind about Hoseok. That is just how much I need him.

We reached the house and walked straight in. Hoseok helped me up on the roof and we sat down beside the telescope. Hoseok grabbed it and looked through it.

"Wow... look." He gave it to me.

I peeked through it and what I saw was magnificent. Thousands of stars scattered on the dark sky, shining like glitter. They were like small diamonds on a dark blue velvet dress.

"It's so pretty..." I sighed.

I felt Hoseok take the telescope from me. "I know. That's why I brought this here."

I smiled. Hoseok's eyes were like the stars. Dark and glimmering. I studied his figure again.

"It's a bit cold out here." I huffed and rubbed my hands together.

"Yeah. I don't feel it thought."

"What? You don't feel the cold air on your skin?"

"I don't."

"Why?"

Hoseok shrugged. "I don't know. It's just always been like that. I don't feel."

I felt bad for him. How can he not feel anything? Cold? Warmth? Nothing? Is that why he's sometimes so mean? He doesn't have something, others do. He's never know what it feels like to cuddle under a warm blanket or step outside on a cold winter day.

"Hoseok? Do you... feel bad about it?"

"No. Why would I?"

"I mean... you've never experienced warmth either?"

"No. I don't know what it's like." He said, emotionlessly. "I don't know feelings, Hyungwon. I don't experience happiness, sadness, anger... I don't taste things or smell things either. I don't know what rain smells like, but people do say it's great."

I could feel tears swelling up in my eyes.

"Don't cry, Hyungwon. Didn't I tell you it's pathetic." Hoseok hissed.

"Sorry... I just... it makes me feel sad to hear those things." I mumbled, trying to keep the tears away.

"Why? Because you have them and I don't?"

"Yeah."

"That's stupid. I don't need them. Want to know why?"

I felt my heart beating fast. It was about to burst.

"W-why?"

I looked at his lips, as they formed words. I could hear it clearly, but I couldn't believe it. How? How did it happen? When? What is going on?