Loss of life

Happiness

Chapter 19

Sammy walked through the iron door and his eyes bulged out of his head when he looked at what was around him.

Purgatory, home sweet home.

"It's so prwetty!" Sammy squealed with happiness.

I looked down at his tiny hand clasped in mine and smiled.

It was pretty, with the lampposts and cobblestone streets, it took my breath away.

"C'mon we gotta get to Ronnie's"

I nod in agreement following Jackson, while Sammy tugged at m hand for me to walk faster.

"Here why don't you walk with Jackson since I'm walking too slow for you" I said smiling.

"Okay" Sammy says clueless to the whole world.

He scurries along grabbing onto Jackson's hand, and causing Jackson to smile.

I just need some time to clear my head. So much has happened and I'm freaked out with my inner demon thing.

I have my own demons. I had them when I was alive too. They swarm my head and cause a lot of chaos in my world, tinkling havoc on everything that is good.

They made things bad.

I was happy on earth, I had a lot going for me. A boyfriend, but he wasn't really good. A college acceptance that I could've gone to. A lovely family. A good amount of friends.

But those were just things.

The truth is no matter how much stuff you have and no matter how nice people think your life is, your never truly happy.

I wasn't truly happy. But I played the happy cheerleader role in front of friends and family.

At least when I'm dead I don't have to act and pretend that my life is some fairy-

"Earth to Elena" Jackson says his face inches from mine.

I shake my head jumping a little bit.

"Sorry I was just lost in thought" I say fake smiling then frowning. I don't have to fake a smile anymore.

"Alright?" Jackson says while a confused Sammy stares at me.

"Why aren't you happy?" Sammy asks.

I look at him caught off guard that he knew I wasn't happy.

"Of course she's happy" Jackson says bending down to Sammy.

Sammy moves away from Jackson and closer to me.

"She just said she wasn't happy"

I feel like I'm about to cry and do the only thing I know how to do in my life.

Run.

I bolt off in the direction we were headed, hoping I'll find Ronnie's shop.

I make a series of turns and loops of sorts. But somehow I made it to Ronnie's shop.

"Wait up!" I hear Jackson yell from behind me.

He's not close but I gotta get in the store.

I open the door and run straight forward into Ronnie's chest. Ouch.

"What's gotten you in such a hurry" Ronnie says chuckling lightly.

"I um, I'm, gotta..." I stutter like an idiot.

"Take a seat" Ronnie says furrowing his brows in confusion.

He hustles over to the door and opens it for Jackson and Sammy.