Loss of life

Why

Chapter 25

Right then and there, something inside of me snapped, something broke.

She jumped, and why? Because of me, because of the heart ache that I brought to her happy little world.

Before me her world was beautiful and happy, but when I came in I brought a nasty storm with me that wound up taking her out.

I stood up from my spot on the bench and clenched my fists, tightening my jaw.

"Are you okay sis?" Mae asked wiping her nose with the nightgown sleeve.

"I'm fine" I say clenching my fists once again.

"Just tell me why" I ask turning to Mae, looking her dead in the eye.

"Why what?"

"Why you" I say taking a step towards her and lowering my voice to a whisper, "why you jumped".

"I jumped because I couldn't take it. I couldn't take the agony that you were gone and you were never coming back. At your funeral everybody told me 'it gets easier' and that 'I need to move on'. But how can it get better when my whole life just got worse?" Mae says with tear filled eyes.

I look at Mae and feel my insides start to burn, at what jake has done. Jake killed me, he took my sisters life, he drove us all insane. And his punishment is years in prison while my sister and I are six feet under? No, that's not fair, he needs a proper punishment.

"We have to get going" I say wiping a stray tear and grabbing Mae's wrist.

Mae obeys, too afraid of what I will do if she resists. She has no clue what I'm capable of. And at this point neither do I.

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Mae and I stumbled through the purgatory door, onto the cobbled streets.

The whole way there we had barely said one word to each other. Only occasionally Mae would ask if we were almost there and I would be obligated to reply.

We turned the corner and I saw Ronnie's shop ahead. My feet were killing me and I was ready to just sit down.

Mae caught up to my pace and was now walking beside me. I looked at her in the corner of my eyes and quickly retreated my eyes. This is not my Mae.

Approaching the store door, I could see Sammy in the window with his face pressed up against the glass. He looked like one of those puppies in the pet store that didn't get bought.

I smile and shake my head walking toward the door. Sammy averts his eyes from the street and toward me and Mae. A smile spreads across his face and he skips to the door.

"Who's that?" Mae asks breaking the silence.

She's standing behind me, not coming up the steps just yet.

"That's Sammy. He's a friend, we picked him up earlier when I..."

My voice trails off but not because I don't want to finish, but because my throat feels like it has closed. Physically I can't speak.

I look over my shoulder and Mae crosses her arms over her chest, nodding. Well at least she got it and didn't make me explain it.

Sammy pushes open the door but not very far. The door is triple his size and weight, it's pretty cute watching him try to open it.

I chuckle and scurry over to the door and pull it open the rest of the way. I hold the door for Mae as she walks into the shop and Sammy looks at her with cautious eyes.