* TRIGGER WARNING PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU MAY GET SET OFF. I don't want to cause anyone any harm in anyway and if you do have an issue with this sort of things please talk to someone. If you don't have anyone to talk to you can talk to me. I understand how it feels/how it is.*
Germany was sitting on his bed, head in his hands. He couldn't stop the onslaught of dark thoughts. It was the middle of the night and everyone else in the house was asleep. His pistol was sitting on the nightstand, begging to be used.
"Vill any of zhem even miss me?" Ludwig wondered out loud. "I doubt zhat zhey vill. I'm a monster."
He sighed and sat up a bit, grabbing the loaded pistol and examining it in his hands.
"Italy vill likely forget about me soon enough, Japan von't even be affected, zhe other Flixa quadruplets vere never close to me anyway, Amelia vill be angry, but she'll get over it, and Leah..." He paused, thinking about her reaction.
She'd probably cry and get mad, maybe scream and curse him out, calling him names perhaps.
"Leah vill be better off vithout me." He said, lifting the pistol to his temple and taking aim.
Leah was tossing and turning in her bed. She was having a terrible nightmare. Ludwig was gone and she was left alone again.
Finally she shot awake, tears streaming down her face. Pure panic gripped her and she frantically glanced around.
She then fully remembered her dream as she started calming down. With fresh panic she leaped out of bed and quickly stumbled out her door and down the hall. She actually ran shoulder first in to the wall opposite her door in her haste. She made it to Ludwig's door and through it open.
A loud cry of panic and terror left her lips when she saw Germany sitting on his bed with his gun to his head, wide eyes focused on her.
While he was still frozen Leah rushed across the room and swatted the gun out of his hand. The was a loud and painful crack as something in her hand broke but she didn't notice.
Once the gun was smacked away the ravenette broke down into choked sobs and incoherent rambling. She fell heavily to her knees and went all but limp.
Ludwig finally snapped out of his shock and carefully scooped the younger nation up, cradling her in his lap as she continued to cry and twitch violently. Tears began to run down his face as well.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." He began to murmur over and over.
Finally West Flixia was able to choke out a coherent sentence.
"D-don't ever d-do dat again." She sobbed.
Germany nodded and held her closer as her right hand came to grip his undershirt in a death grip. After a few more minutes they managed to calm down and Leah explained her nightmare and Ludwig explained his dark thoughts.
"Well dey're wrong. We'll miss da living hell out of you. You're important to all of us." She said, endearing accent mangling her words a bit.
Ludwig nodded, nuzzling the side of her head. His right hand sought out her left hand to hold it. When his fingers brushed against her knuckles she hissed in pain and quickly brought her hand up to her chest.
As she cradled it against her chest she looked at the damage with a shocked look. He cradled her closer, looking at her slightly mangled hand as well, with a guilty look.
Her knuckles were bleeding and the hand was clearly broken.
"Meh." She finally said, shrugging and drawing her tongue across the bloody area to clean it. "I'll have Kiku look at it in de morning."
The German chuckled slightly a reaching over and pulled a bandage out of his nightstand drawer. He carefully wrapped her hand and pressed a kiss to the bandages when he was done.
"Danke." He murmured, kissing her forehead.
"You're welcome." She said. "Ich leibe dich."
"Ich leibe dich auch." He replied, pressing a quick kiss to her lips. "We should go back to bed."
Leah hummed but snuggled closer to him.
"I don't really wanna go anywhere dough." She mumbled, pressing her mouth into his shoulder. "Not sure I can sleep after all dat."
Ludwig hummed and carefully maneuvered himself to laying down with Leah laying, curled on his chest. The green eyed girl hummed happily and used her magic to pull the covers over them.
As she was drifting off to sleep she mumbled out one more thing.
"Please never do dat again. I don't dink dat I could carry on without you." Her voice was soft and then trailed off as she fell asleep.
*cries a little. "Now I feel like a bad person but at least it has a happy ending."*
